The Crude Casanova

TCC ~ 40

TCC ~ XL

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Chryss

"I still have to go to Laguna."

"Why?" He gazed handsomely at me.

Nakahiga na naman siya sa kandungan ko habang nanonood kami ng Avengers:Infinity War for the nth time. One of Santhe's favorites. Kasalukuyan siyang nakahiga at nakasandig naman sa akin. I am sandwich between these two most special boys in my life.

I am munching some popcorn. We decided to watch in the entertainment room since these past few days have been so intense and draining.

It's a good thing Santhe didn't hold any grudge on his father. Humingi ng tawad si Senechov sa kanya at nangakong mamamasyal kaming tatlo sa Hongkong Disneyland. Santhe didn't like it that much because he's not into Disney characters but he wanted to see Iron Man so he agreed.

"My parents are there."

I know we're okay now but I'm still nervous to talk about it. Naninibago rin ako. I used to hide my identity to him. Now, I can tell him everything.

At least we're moving forward.

I just couldn't bear the thought if he didn't forgive me at all. Maybe I'm already back to the States now if he didn't accept me again. That was my plan all along before falling in love with him.

"So how did they adopt you? And where are your biological parents?"
He sounded curious.

Nakatutok ang mga mata niya sa akin habang ako nama'y nasa pinapanood ang atensyon. Some blush crept in my face with the way he's staring at me. It was heartwarming and the butterflies kept on fluttering inside my tummy. Ito talaga ang epekto sa akin ni Senechov.

"My biological mom was their helper when they stayed here in the Philippines. Two years lang ang tanda sa akin ni Ate Ville. May congenital heart disease na siya bata pa lang. Ang sabi ni Charlie--"

"Who's Charlie?" kunot-noong tanong niya.

"He's my adopted mother."

I think I've already mentioned Charlie to him? Pero ang pakilala ko yata ay dati kong amo. I shook my head. My lies are unbelievable. Inaamin ko, I wasn't too happy with myself. I thought it will make everything easy for myself. Makakalapit ako kay Santhe ng walang problema kung magpapanggap ako na walang ugnayan sa kanya. I was just being practical that time. Alam kong iisipin nila na kukunin ko sa kanila si Sanhe kapag sinabi ko kung sino ako.

The plan is, I'll take care of him, kagaya ng gusto ni Ate Ville ng walang nakakaalam kung sino talaga ako.

But everything gone wrong. Senechov happened. I fell for him. Suddenly, I couldn't bear lying to him. Suddenly, I want to tell him everything but I was so afraid.

Tumango siya. I can see it in his eyes that he remembered the lies I told him. Alam na niya ang lahat but the guilt is still there, creeping inside me.

I may not be an honest person all the time but this is the biggest lies I've ever done and said.

"Then?"

"Then, my sister have to be operated, they are in need of money. Since they doesn't have a kid, my adopted parents offered for help and they wanted me.."

Cliché as it seems but it's what really happened.

"Hindi ka man lang nagalit sa tunay mong mga magulang?" He asked.

His thick eyebrows are frowning.

Umiling ako. "At first I hated them but then I realized, Charlie and Oliver gave me everything a daughter could ask for. They gave me a good life. Pinag-aral nila ako. Minahal bilang tunay na anak. I should think of the good things that happened to me. Hindi na dapat ako mangsisi pa ng iba. I am lucky that I have two parents." I softly smiled.