The Crude Casanova

TCC ~ 39

Sorry for the typos and grammatical errors. I'm trying to edit them one by one pero may naiiwan talaga. Anyway, thanks for reading! Salamat din sa nagbabasa at nagbasa ng The Runaway Groom! Nasa works ko siya if you haven't read it yet. Please vote and comment, btw! ❤

-myishi_chan

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TCC ~ XXXIX

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Chryss

I was biting my lower lip in anxiousness. I was watching Senechov's expression changes by the second. Papalit-palit ang emosyon na dumaraan sa mukha niya.

I was waiting for his outburst, for his rage or throwing of another fit. But none of it happened.

Napasapo siya sa ulo niya at tahimik na lumakad patungong hagdan. He climbed the grandiose staircase in silence.

My mouth is agaped. What did just happened? Did he just walked away without another word? Without getting angry at me?

"Sundan mo muna siya, hija. Ako muna ang bahala sa bisita mo." Malumanay na utos sa akin ni Manang.

I scanned the whole place. And I can't believe until now how Senechov was able to turn it into this messy.

"Ako na ang bahala rito. Magpapatulong ako kina Shiela sa pag-aayos dito." Her face is encouraging.

I sighed. I guess they can take care of it. Tutulong na lang ako kapag nakausap ko na ang lalaking iyon.

Napabaling ako kay Chad.

I stared at him apologetically. "I'm sorry. I have something to fix."

He glanced at me with a kind smile. "Okay. I'm sorry for entering without your permission. I was just worried."

I sighed again. I shouldn't have blamed him in my mind. I'm too harsh on him. He's only thinking of my welfare.

"It's okay, Chad."

Gusto ko pa sanang dugtungan iyon ngunit napasulyap ako sa pinatunguhan ni Senechov.

"It's okay. You can go now.." He breathed. Iniiwas din niya ang tingin sa akin.

Tumango ako at hindi na nag dalawang-isip pa. I made my way upstairs and to Senechov's room. He would be there.

Pagkarating ko sa tapat ng pinto niya ay humugot muna ako ng malalim na hininga bago kumatok. I am so nervous right now. What if doon siya sa kwarto nagwawala? What if he's so angry that I am with Chad?

I can't read him. It seems like he's drifting so far away from me.

I can't take this distance walling between us. He's so out of reach. I can't hold and caress his face to ease his scowling even if I want to. I'm so afraid of his rejection. Gustong-gusto ko siyang pakalmahin at damayan sa nararamdaman niya. It's ironic because I am the cause of it but still I want to be there for him.

Am I being selfish?

He didn't answer my knock. I frowned. Maybe he doesn't want to be disturbed. But since I am thick faced, I still entered. The atmosphere is heavy as I went inside.

He's unmoving while sitting on the bed.

"Ahm.. Are you okay?" I hesitated but still asked anyway.

I know it was sort of a dumb question but I can't help it.

He raised his head. "What do you think?" His tone sounded so cold.

Hindi man angkop sa sitwasyon ay napangiti ako. He's back to being rude now. But his remarks and rudeness doesn't bother me anymore. For the past few days, we've been drifting apart and that scared me more than his crudeness. I never knew being in love could be this intense. Fighting, arguements, misunderstanding, this is all new to me. It never happened between me and Chad. It was always him trying to understand me. I thought it was just his kindness but I realized it's because I don't love him like a woman should love him.