The Crude Casanova

TCC ~ 23

TCC ~ XXIII

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Chryss

"Ah, I miss this warmth." Chad looks so refreshed and calm as he appeared out of the water.

Iniayos niya ang buhok na napunta sa kanyang mukha. Magulo na iyon dahil sa pagkakabasa ng tubig. The water is dripping in his face. He looked like a man in a sexy commercial.

Kasalukuyan kaming naliligo. Sa may dalampasigan ay naroon si Oliver at Charlie na nagsa-sunbathing pa rin. Kahit na hindi na ganoon kainit. I think it's almost four in the afternoon. I don't know. My phone is off so.

We had our lunch in the restaurant of the hotel where we're staying. We then came back to the beach after eating.

Tomorrow, my itinerary is to tour them here in Batangas. There are centuries-old churches here and other places to visit. Maybe Oliver will be interested with Batangas' famous balisong or butterfly knife. Oliver is fascinated with the Filipino culture so I bet he would enjoy it. He's a college professor and he loved learning more things.

Pero ngayon, masaya pa sila rito sa beach so I'll let them. Matagal-tagal na rin nang huli kaming magbakasyon. I was busy when I was in the States and then I left for Philippines so we really didn't have time to be together. Gusto ko rin namang bumawi sa kanila. Sa lahat-lahat ng naibigay nila sa akin, for being understanding parents, for taking care of me. For giving me a good life. I couldn't be grateful enough.

Ganoon din ang gagawin ko sa mga tunay kong magulang sa probinsiya. Sina Tatay Luis at Nanay Pamela. Alam kong malungkot pa sila ngayon pero I'll do my best to give them happiness.

"Do you still have a plan to come back in the States?"

Hinilamos ko ang maligamgam na tubig dagat sa aking mukha. The sun is turning to shades of orange. Malapit nang mag-sunset.

Another day is about to end. Then another morning will begin. Our everyday life. Our everyday battle.

Bakit nga kaya gustong-gusto ko ang sunset? Although I love sunrise too, there's something about sunset that mesmerized me.

Maganda rin naman ang sunset sa States. But I love it more here. It's a little closer in my heart.

"I don't know." I answered.

I'm still undecided. There are a lot of factors I have to consider. Of course, I want to be with Charlie and Oliver. I have friends there, too. And my job, I can't just leave it like that. Si Lydia and Cami lang ang naiwan ko roon para mag-manage. I'm sure they're having a hard time. My business is already established kaya maraming client.

But here.. I have Santhe, sina Nanay at Tatay. Si Cleo. Si Ate Ville.. At kahit na naiirita at ansasaktan ako, alam kong isang malaking rason si Senechov para ayaw kong umalis. I really hate goodbyes. Mabuti pa ang sunset, alam mong kinabukasan, nariyan pa rin. Muling tataas ang araw at lulubog din.

"I thought you'll stay for only a few months here? You said it before. You only want to meet your biological parents and your sister." He said calmly.

I looked straight in his eyes. I can see hope and fear in there. Umaasa pa rin siya. Hanggang ngayon.

"Chad.." I sighed deeply. "I still have a lot to fix."

Marami pa sana akong gustong sabihin pero ayoko na munang sirain ang araw na 'to. Before we became together, naging isang mabuting kaibigan si Chad. And I'm sure, he will always understand me. Kahit na ang hirap kong intindihin, nandiyan pa rin siya para unawain ako at ang mga desisyon ko. He's a great guy. And he doesn't deserve someone like me who can't love and care for him like how he does to me.