kik → a.i ⋆ c.h

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calumhizzle: yes

astroash: yes?

calumhizzle: what

astroash: you never reply normally

calumhizzle: i am today

astroash: oh
astroash: okay

calumhizzle: 👍

astroash: are you okay?

calumhizzle: mhm
calumhizzle: why wouldn't i be

astroash: because we've barely talked since saturday and this is like the only way i can get you to actually speak to me

calumhizzle: we've talked

astroash: i asked you if we were breaking up then your phone rang and the subject changed and we didn't talk until that night when you yelled "i just fucking hugged alex gaskarth" into my ear at emo nite and after that it was just yep's and no's and hums in response
astroash: you're barely talking to me
astroash: so again i'm asking
astroash: are you okay?

calumhizzle: i'm good

astroash: no you're not
astroash: you told me to be open with you but you're not doing it either
astroash: please talk to me

calumhizzle: i just need a minute, okay?

astroash: it's been 5 days, cal
astroash: i don't know how much longer you think ignoring someone whose house you're staying in is going to work,,

calumhizzle: so what
calumhizzle: you gonna kick me out ☕️

astroash: don't
astroash: i meant that we're staying in the same place and ignoring me doesn't work
astroash: it's like, you're here but this house is empty
astroash: i feel alone

calumhizzle: i feel like my boyfriend has feelings for and wants to fuck his ex boyfriend, idk that might just be me being weird tho idk

astroash: seriously

calumhizzle: 👍

astroash: okay so you didn't mean it when you said it's okay and that you understand and you're going to love me through it and that you're not mad

calumhizzle: i did
calumhizzle: i'm just pissed off
calumhizzle: i can't help that i'm jealous and terrified you're gonna leave me for him

astroash: i'm not

calumhizzle: yeah
calumhizzle: you're saying that but i don't believe it at all since i know how badly you still want him
calumhizzle: or whatever

astroash: i don't
astroash: i did, but i don't now
astroash: i want you
astroash: please listen to me
astroash: i hate this
astroash: baby
astroash: please don't leave me on read
astroash: calum
astroash: cal
astroash: calllluummmm
astroash: baby
astroash: babe
astroash: squish :((
astroash: i'd come upstairs and bug you but i know it'll make this worse :(
astroash: lover
astroash: calum hood
astroash: baby boy :((((
astroash: sexiest bass player ever :(
astroash: squishy :(
astroash: please
astroash: please don't shut me out
astroash: i will sing frozen lyrics to you
astroash: please
astroash: i miss you
astroash: please don't do this
astroash: i don't want to lose you
astroash: calum
astroash: i know what i had going on with luke was fucked and i hate that i still have feelings for him and i tried to stop but i can't
astroash: it's not like i'm still in love with him
astroash: like i told you
astroash: i don't think i could ever be in love with him again
astroash: i couldn't love him like that
astroash: my heart is too guarded
astroash: my biggest fear besides losing you is luke breaking my heart again
astroash: so i'm not ever going to leave you for him
astroash: please talk to me
astroash: baby :(