L'envers poétique de la vie/ The Other Side of Life's Medal

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I've never felt more lonely in my life
longing for some compagny
for some friends
Never felt more shocked
by something that happened in the past

And leaving after French class
after the class about consent
and because of your doings
Half in tears
Half shocked
Because honestly
Maybe it was my fault
Maybe I wasn't clear enough
Maybe my silence was a "Yes"
Maybe it's all my fault
Maybe your hand
on my leg
too far
way, way too far
way, way, too far for my liking
was just a tad too much for me back then
Maybe I slapped your hand away back then
But the wrong was done back then
I hadn't realized that it was that bad of a thing
Maybe just going to your place was a mistake
Maybe it's just how humans are
I feel guilty of it
I feel rejected
I feel alone
Now fucking stop
staring at me or saying hi to me
I don't want to talk to you anymore
So please shut up, please
Leave me alone
Stop staring at me
Stop
Please
Stop looking at me
Stop talking to me
Stop thinking that we're "still friends"

#MeToo

-M.B