Behind Closed Doors ( Chris Motionless)

Chapter 11: Just one of those days

For the past few days, Chris have been driving me back and forth to school, before and after he goes to the studio. Every time he drops me off school, he walks me to my class and hugs me good bye and says he'll see me later. It made me feel good about myself. I still wore my jackets to school though. Today at school wasn't anything new, I was still being picked on, but I decided to just get my stuff out of my locker and flip them off as I walk down the hall.

okay, so it's clear to see that I've been around Chris for too long, I laughed at myself as I thought about him flipping me off while we were racing. I snapped back into reality and saw that I was walking slow in the empty hallway, so I begin to fast walk, one of the jocks, Derek, and his girlfriend, Lainey, came closing me in to the wall.

Lainey had evil green eyes and light brown hair, and perfect skin. Derek was just a skinny, tall blonde guy with blue eyes. They're both stuck up.

"so, look who's on cloud 9 this week, Derek,"

"I bet it's because of that goth faggot that's been dropping her off at school, isn't Fishy Lizzy?"

"That joke's so ourdated, Derek, that was fucking three years ago," I said, without even thinking about who I'm talking to.

"she does have a point, Derek," Lainey agreed.

"look, we know who that guy is, we've seen him all over the fucking internet, the tv, and he's all over your shirts and jacket, he's pretty famous in your emo world, so listen up, whatever he's doing to make you smile and happy isn't gonna last long. He's gonna be super busy and lose contact with you, and you'll be back to your dark and gloomy world of yours, so don't get used to all of the attention, okay, Miss Giggly," Lainey explained. 

"You don't know him!"

"Oh, and you do?"

I was quiet, we've only known each other for a week, and I'm already standing up for him, but he is my idol, so I have to do what's right and stand up for myself and him, I begin to get really upset and ball up my fist.

"Whacha gonna do, faggot? Huh? You're sure as hell not gonna hit Lainey, we'll both kick your ass, I don't care if you're a girl or not,"

"Hell, that's even if you're a girl," Derek teased, I pushed passed them and tried to make a run for it, but before you know it, I was on the floor getting puched, luckily I didn't get any bruises.

When Chris came to pick me up, Lainey's words popped in my head about Chris not being there for me, I asked to make sure.

"Chris, after I leave, you know...into my own place will we still keep in contact?"

"Yes, of course! I'm not going anywhere at all, I'm still going to be there when you need me, and I'm still going to hang out with you as much as you want," he said smiling, as he pat my knee, I smiled, I'm glad he said that.

"How was school?" He asked, as if he were a concerned parent, I replied with an "ehh," he nodded.

"How was the studio?"

"Same o, same o, you should come with me sometime, it gets fun and wild sometimes when we take a break from recording and such, and the guys wanna see you again, they really like you, especially Ricky," he said matter of factly, winking at me.

"What do you mean, 'especially Ricky'? "

"I think he has a crush on you, he talked about you non stop, asking me questions like "does she have a boyfriend," "how old is she?" "is she okay?" "does she want a boyfriend," "does she like anyone?" "find out who she likes," he was asking a million questions," he said laughing dryly, I just half smile at him.

Ricky is kinda cute, but I'm not really attracted to him like that, he's more of a friend, to me. During the rest of the ride home, I was wondering if Chris talked about me too, or even thought about me, as much as I was thinking about him at school. I stopped daydreaming, knowing that he wouldn't want to be with me. I need to find something to do to keep my mind off of him so much, this is getting out of control. When we got home, Chris put his arm around my shoulders, an elderly couple walked by us and stopped and stared, they smiled and pointed.

"awww, now why don't you look at that?" said the elder woman, smiling.

"such a cute couple, they remind me of us Eugene," she said.

"Yes, what a beautiful couple, you can see the love in their eyes," said the man.

Chris and I just giggled and smiled at the couple,

"We're not dating, we're just best friends," Chris said, blushing as hard as he could.

"Well, you two should consider going out, you two clearly have feelings for each other, just the way you look at each other is obvious enough," Eugene said.

Chris and I slowly looked at each other.

"Have a good day," the couple said.

We continued to stare at each other, I broke the ice and head for the door. Chris soon followed me into my room, and sat next to me on my bed.

"we need to talk," he sounding serious, yet nervous.

"okay.."

Just before he could get a word out, his phone rang.

"It's Balz, hold on,"

He answered, and walked out of the room, I was feeling anxious about what he was going to say. Seconds later, he ran into my room, dragging me outside, he seemed panicky, when we got in the car, his fingers moved so fast through the keys, trying to get the right one.

"What's wrong, what happened?"

"It's Ryan, he's in the hospital, we've gotta go!"

He said, stomping on the breaks.