Behind Closed Doors ( Chris Motionless)

Chapter 18: This is the part where you tell me how you feel

I gulped down the big air bubble in my throat, I really don't want him to tell me how he feels about me, especially sense Chris and I are dating. I was afraid that Ricky was going to spill out his feelings to me and then ask me out. I'd hate to break his heart and reject him. He's a very cute and funny guy, and I really don't want to bring him down.

He scratches his hair and takes my hands. Both of our hands were shaky.

"um, well...we've both known each other for a little while now, and we've hung out alone a couple of times, and I had fun during those times. You're a fun girl and you're extremely beautiful, and I'd wish to spend more time with you. I'm sure that Chris have told you that I have a crush on you. It's more than a crush.actually. I fell for you sense Chris introduced us to each other, it was your eyes that I drowned in, and your hair that flows perfect down your back, and the sound of your voice that gives me butterflies. It's the fact that you used to cut that intrigued me also, I immediately wanted to know about you, and why you did those things to your beautiful body. I just think you're insanely beautiful, and you're everything a guy could ever wish for,"

The words he spoke was so very sweet, I actually felt myself kinda...falling for him. I knew immediately that this is bad. This is really bad. Ricky has some pretty serious feelings about me, and I think I'm forming some type of feelings for him too. I couldn't help but smile at his words. He continued.

"And that smile...I can't describe how I feel when I see your smile. It's just a magnificent thing, and not to mention you're super talented on the guitar, and drawing, Chris tweeted one of your drawings...anyway, what I'm trying to say is..I'm in love with you. I love you, Liz. And I hope you feel the same," He says as he rubs his thumbs across my hands.

My mouth dropped open. I didn't know what to say. I was lost for words! Love?! He LOVES me?! I definitely didn't want this to happen. I closed my mouth and swallowed.

"This is the part where you tell me how you feel," Ricky says.

That's the thing, I didn't know how I feel exactly.

"I..I'm not really good with explaining emotions, Ricky,"

He nods his head in understanding.

"I'll give you time to think about it," he says.

I nod my head as he brings me into a hug, making our guitars cling. We giggled and left, packing up our equipment, meeting the guys in the van.

Now I have a lot to think about.