icebreaker | nolan patrick

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Fiona

Center City, Philadelphia 

This morning I woke up experiencing the worst thing that could possibly be happening. Ever. I woke up around 9, Nolan already being gone for morning skate, feeling nauseous. I ran to the bathroom, feeling last nights dinner coming right up my esophagus.

After throwing up, I sat down onto Nolan's bed.

"Fuck," I whispered, tears pooling in my eyes.

I quickly pulled up Ashley's contact, clicking her name and listening to the ringing.

"Hello?" She said, obviously being woken up by my call.

"Ash, I'm pregnant," I cried, a sob leaving my mouth when I said it out loud.

"Fuck, Fi. How do you know? Did you take a test?" She asked, sounding a bit more awake now.

"No, but I just threw up. I'm not supposed to get my period for a week, though."

My period has always been pretty inconsistent. Sometimes I get it twice in a month, sometimes I go three months without it.

"Ok. Do you have Nolan's car? You can come pick me up and we can grab a test," Ashley comforted.

"I think so. He usually leaves it for me. Fuck, Ashley. What if I really am pregnant? What's Nolan gonna say?"

I made my way down into the parking garage, wiping my tears as I said goodbye to the nice elderly man that works the gate. The drive was difficult, trying not to crash with the tears building up in my eyes.

"Fiona," Ashley opened her arms to hug me, my many tears wetting her sweatshirt.

We drove to the closest CVS, which luckily was only five minutes away. Fortunately, there was no one there that was in any of my classes and I didn't recognize anyone. I really didn't want it getting around that I was pregnant when the father doesn't even know yet.

Ashley and I decided to just go into the bathroom there, wanting to figure this out as soon as possible.

We bought 3 digital tests and 3 normal one-or-two-lines tests. I peed on them, setting individual timers on my phone for each.

The first timer went off two minutes later.

"I can't look."

Ashley picked up the test, taking a deep breath and flipping it over.

"Shit. Positive."

I broke down into tears, sliding down the bathroom wall, not caring how dirty it is.

"Fi, it's gonna be okay. Nolan's a good guy, he's not gonna run," Ash comforted me, rubbing my back, crying a bit herself.

We spent a few minutes in the bathroom, waiting for the rest of the tests to be sure. A little girl and her mom walked in. Her mom gave me a dirty look, seeing all of the tests on the sink.

I cleaned myself up, trying my best not to cry as I drove to the practice rink. I decided I should tell Nolan as soon as possible because if I didn't tell him now I don't know when I would ever have the courage to.