keaton is your average 18 year old senior in high school . has the perfect friends and somewhat of a perfect life. but what will happen when her old friend/old flame shawn comes back to town? will they hit it off again or will something be holding h...
its been two months since i've come home to los angeles to take some time for myself. of course i still keep in contact with the goons and i miss them dearly but this is what i needed. oh and i met this amazing guy who i started dating and i couldn't be more happier. he makes me feel like a princess and keeps me smiling from ear to ear.
"keaton! mac is here to see you!" my sister yells from downstairs. before i could say anything my door flings open and i see mac standing there with the cheesiest smile on his face. "what you dork?" i say. "i've missed you baby!" he screams while running towards me and jumping on top of me. we start laughing. this boy is honestly my true love. "so baby, i was thinking we go to lunch and then shopping, my treat." he says while kissing my cheek. "mac you know you don't have to pay for everything, i have money." i tell him.
"now what kind of boyfriend would i be if i let my princess pay for her own stuff? i'll answer that for you, a dumb boyfriend." he says. i giggle. i got up from my bed and walked to my closet. i rummage through my clothes and pick out my high-waisted jeans with my bralette and black zip up jacket. i curl my hair and brush my teeth. "alright im ready babe." i say while walking out my bathroom. "damn you look hot, i could just take you right here." he says with seductive eyes. "mac stop it and lets go." i say while grabbing his wrist and walking downstairs.
after a long day with mac i finally get home and get on my phone. i decided to post a picture of us on instagram since i haven't posted in a while.
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@keatonbaby_: thank you for making the two months of me being home bearable. i love you with all my heart malcolm james mccormick 💍🖤 @caraaaa: miss you keaton, so glad you're happy💙 @jackgilinsky: miss you! happy for you keaton! @jackjohnson: 😍😍😍 @macmiller: i love you baby. forever and always ❤️💍 shawnmendes: 😕
i look at shawns comment and scoff. fuck this boy. he doesn't deserve to comment on my shit after what he did to me. im happy and he can't take that away. i get up and decide to shower. instead of listening to my own music i decided to listen to the radio. the dj comes on and announces the next song. "alright so we have a new song from the one and only shawn mendes. its a pretty catchy song. hope you guys enjoy." he plays the song and my heart sinks. this is another song shawn sang to me when we were in high school. whats with this kid and playing these songs that put me in a mood.
I want to go back, Forget that it's over Painted in black, When you left me alone I never knew, she was sleeping next door With the kid I grew up with, And I can't go back to her anymore, no more You tell me you were happier with him, you want me to stay And you tell me that you needed time but you push me away But then you try to take me back, my heavy heart just breaks No, I can't lift the weight
Put you in the past, Try to forget you 'cause it's over And every time you ask I pretend I'm okay You're inside my head In the middle of the night When I don't feel right I dream I can hold you, And I can't go back to you anymore, yeah, yeah You tell me you were happier with him, you want me to stay And you tell me that you needed time, but you push me away But then you try to take me back, my heavy heart just breaks But, I can't lift the weight, and I can't lift the weight
And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight Yeah, you stand on my shoulders and my heart just breaks And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight Yeah, you stand on my shoulders and my heart just breaks And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight Yeah, you lower your standards and I raise the stakes And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight
You tell me you were happier with him, but you want me to stay And you tell me that you needed time but you, you push me away But then you try to take me back, my heavy heart just breaks But, I can't lift the weight, and I can't lift the weight You tell me you were happier with him, you want me to stay You told me that you needed time but you, you push me away And then you try to take me back Say someday you will change, but I don't wanna wait
that song was about some chick that cheated on him in 9th grade with his neighbor. it was one the biggest rumors on campus. i hop out the shower, braid my hair and throw my pajamas on. before i go to bed i text mac and always say goodnight. its kinda a tradition with us now.
me: goodnight my sweet boy. thank you for today and i hope to see you tomorrow😘 mac baby💍: goodnight baby. i love you dearly and im glad i got to spend today with you. you definitely will see me tomorrow 🤞🏾💙 me: perfect! i love you . goodnight 💗🥰
i lock my phone and cozzy under my covers. im so fucking grateful for mac. he has taught me love and patience. hes such an angel and im glad god put him in my life. maybe, just maybe i wont go back to new york . my life is here with mac. and im okay with that.
i close my eyes and doze off into a peaceful sleep.
i fucking loved writing this chapter. i love mac miller and it still hurts till this day that he's actually gone. breaks my heart. comment your favorite mac song 💙 anyways, thanks for reading ! :))
