I'm Yours ( Book 1 )

Chapter 24

Jema

Oh my gosh, thank God for Bei.  Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko kung wala sya dun kanina.

Hey, don't get me wrong.  She is a friend, a closed one.  Tama lang na sa kanya ako pa-rescue in situation like that.

Hindi ko kasi alam na nandoon pa si Deanna sa office.  Anong ginagawa nya dun huh.  First day sa work tapos mag-o-OT, ganun?

I don't know why I did those things infront of Deanna.  It's an automatic reaction because up to know I can't believe that she's here again.

The whole day in the office,  I tried my best to act professional towards her. 

Only Kris knows what transpired before between us.  Nung lunch time nga, halos hindi ako nakakain dahil kumukuha ako ng advise sa best friend ko.

Kris told me to show to Deanna that I've moved on from her.  That she has no effect to me anymore. 

Easier said than done, haha.

Bei felt that I'm bothered with Deanna's sudden appearance but she didn't ask me.  That's how understanding she is.

Kaya naalala ko bigla yung invite nya sakin na dinner nung nag interrupt sa amin si Deanna. 

Siempre sinamahan ko ng konting flirt para bwisetin yung Wong na yun.
Ewan ko lang kung may effect kasi wala naman na syang sinabi nung umalis na kami ni Bei.

When we're in the ramen restaurant na and waiting for the food, Bei asked  why I suddenly changed my mind about the dinner. 

That time kasi na may binulong sya sakin sa office,  I told her na di pa ako tapos sa reports ko.  Nagpapaalam na sya sakin na uuwi na, then boom,  may nagsara ng drawer.  Ang sakit sa tenga ha.

I thought hard kung sasabihin ko ba sa kanya yung past namin ni Deanna. Sa almost 6 months ko syang kakilala, puro good sides ang pinapakita nya.  Never pang nag iba ang treatment ni Bei sakin.

I mean, baka magbago ang tingin nya sa akin and isipin na I'm easy to get.  Pero come to think of it, kung talagang sincere sya sa pagsuyo sa akin, dun ko malalaman.

So I decided to tell her, minus the very intimate details.  Pero alam nya may nangyari na samin ni Deanna. 

She's very quiet after ng revelations ko.   Naku eto na, iiwan din ba ako nito?

"I'm very sorry to hear that J", she told me while holding my hand. 

Teka bakit sya ang nagso-sorry?  Yung taong gusto kong maringgan nyan, walang pakialam and mukhang walang balak mag sorry.  Bumalik bigla yung sakit na naramdaman ko nung umalis si Deanna ng walang paalam.

"I can't speak for Deanna and I don't know why she did those.  Also I don't care about her nor your past with her."

"I only care about you because you are very special to me.  All I can offer you is myself." 

"I love you Jema", madamdamin nyang pag amin.

Natulala naman ako sa sinabi nya.  I know she likes me pero never nya pa akong sinabihan ng I love you.

She waited for me to say something pero walang lumabas sa bibig ko.

"You don't have to say anything J, I just want to tell you that", she smiled.

"Besides, it's her loss, not yours.  Trust me, the word "user" is not in my vocabulary.  I will always be here for you as long as you want me around.", she looked me in the eye while saying these words.