"nothing feels better than this." (tehe; guess the song)
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[the next morning, annie skipped school] 1:30pm i first needed to change, change into something i'd usually wear before everything. before i met johnny or hayden. something that covered up my bruises, cuts, scars, anything and everything that my father did do me. i went downstairs to see him.
"julianna, seems like you-" i cut him off. "i'm not going to be this bad juvenile anymore. the act is done. i realized that covering up my horrible life and hurting people isn't going to solve anything. so i don't care anymore." "hm well i guess i'll just give you a little taste of what you didn't get in a while" he beat me, in any way possible he could. i guess he's been holding all this in. he held me up in the air as i looked at him in pain and managed to say something before he finished his punching. "mom would be so...so disappointed..." his eyes fired up, i made him angry...really angry. he hit me, over and over and over and over. he got a knife and cut my neck and my arm. deep enough i probably didn't need to go to the hospital. he got the collar of my shirt. "you will NEVER EVER bring up your mother to me like that. UNDERSTAND" "denying...the truth doesn't...change facts" i managed to get out as the pain from my neck started to increase. he punched me one last time after probably around 30 punches in total. he dropped my head and dropped the knife, and left. i deserved this. for all the pain i've cause others. this is what i truly deserve now. before i didn't know what i did to deserve this sort of treatment but now i do. i just laid there, thinking of all my regrets, all my mistakes, all the people i hurt... i finally tried to get up, it was painful but i didn't give up. i got up and went to my bathroom in my room. i opened my closet to get another outfit since the one i'm wearing at the moment is bloody...i went through clothes and found an outfit. as i was about to close it, something caught my eye. the dress hayden gave me for my birthday. memories from that day popped up in my head. i signed and closed it. i grabbed my phone as messages from the 'gang' gc blew up. it was around 5pm they said to meet in 30 minutes. i signed as i responded with 'okay' my plan was to go with them to see what's up then go to johns. i went to the bathroom and grabbed my first aid kit that was in my bottom cabinet. i cleaned up my wound that hurt like a mother- nvm. i hurt really bad. i just covered it up with one of those big bandages and also covered up the one on my arm by wrapping it. i threw my bloody clothes into the washer. i fixed how i looked and changed.
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i grabbed my home keys and before i left i took some pain killers. i grabbed my phone, put on my 'gang' leather jacket, and grabbed my bag full of things i'll probably need with the gang. we were meeting at our place that we found which was has been abandoned for awhile. i got there to see everyone just looking at me. "hey guys" "annie, what's that on your neck?" anna asked, coming closer. "don't worry about it, i'm fine. anyways why are we here?" "we are going to do something...BIG" "probably another waste of time. look as much as i'd want to be here, i got some place to be" i grabbed my phone and opened the door. leaving. "you step out that door, you'll be sorry!" asher yelled. "sorry for what?" i laughed stepping out. "i swear to god annie...don't you dare." "whatever asher, go stick a blunt up your ass or somethin' to calm you down." "leblanc your out if you leave" will said "really will? after saving your ass with the cops? without me you would've gotten your stupidass locked up" he was silent. "whatever this 'meeting' is about, let me know tomorrow or don't let me know at all. i don't care either way. i got to go do something way more important than this stupid shit. bye guys" and that's when i left. i headed to johns and knew he was the only one home since i overheard jayden tell kenzie that lauren and her parents are gone until christmas day. on my way there, it started to rain let harddd. i was drenched once i got there. i took a deep breath and knocked on the door. after a few seconds, there he was. standing with his wet dirty blonde and his beautiful hazel eyes, drying out his hair with a towel as he seemed to have just gotten out of the shower. "hey..." "annie? what's up? i didn't think you'd want to see me after..." "i came to apologize...for everything" "first come in, your soaked" he quickly pulled me inside and gave me a towel. he looked at me with wide eyes and left the room. "johnny...?" he came back, sitting me down at one of the chairs in his kitchen, taking out the first aid kit. "john what are y—" he pulled out a cloth and put some alcohol, putting it on my neck, it stung more than before and i already cleaned it before. "how did you know? i had a bandage on" "it must've fallen from the rain making it all soggy..." we were silent for a few then he spoke. "what happened?" he looked at me the same way he did when we first met. he knew i didn't want to speak about it. he put this cream over my wound so it would clear up then covered it with a bandage. "i'm so...so sorry john..." a tear fell. "hey, hey, it's okay..." he put his hand on my cheek and it was like all my feelings for him were back. he made me realize what love is and how it felt like and now i feel it again. he wiped the tear off my face. "i-im s-such a t-terrible person. how could i just leave you like that? how was i able to just walk out when you needed me the most? when all you did was be there for me. i'm so so so sorry johnny, i regret it. i regret leaving you there. i regret pushing you away. i regret not being there by your side when you were waking up and recovering. i'm sorry i left your side. i'm so sorry" i started crying as he wrapped his arms around me. "i-i just wasn't ready, i-i c-couldn't. i couldn't after months of not being able to see you. no one told me anything about you until you woke up and i ran out like the coward i am" "i understand why you weren't there and it's okay. it's okay anns" he rubbed my back. "i-i don't deserve you john, not even close. you deserve someone so much better who'll treat you amazing." he pulled away and lifted up my chin. "there isn't anyone else i'd rather want to be with than you cupcake" he smiled and wiped my remaining tears. he grabbed my hand, leading me to his room. he took out a hoodie and some sweats, giving them to me. "go to the bathroom and change. i don't want you to get sick with those wet clothes." "thank you, so much" as i was about to go to the bathroom, he spoke. "annie" "yes john?" "i want you to stay here...the storm is going to get even worse so there isn't school tomorrow. i don't want you to go to your house with this crazy whether so please stay here." i smiled and nodded. i went to the bathroom and changed. as i was about to put on the hoodie over my head, i saw the cut on my arm. it was red, red but not bleeding. it was my right bicep. it hurt. i finally finished and put up my clothes so that they'd dry. i went downstairs to see johnny in the kitchen. "want something to eat?" "sure, why not" we started eating and talking. i kept apologizing and explaining to him everything. i apologized for having that thing with hayden when he was in a coma but i guess hayden already told him about it. then he asked me something someone hasn't asked in awhile. "how are you?" "could be...a lot better, you?" "right now, at this moment...amazing" i smiled as he did. "but" he paused and i looked up. "please tell me who's hurting you anns. it hurts me so much to see you like this, bruised up and cut..." "that's something that you don't have to worry about anymore john, i'll be fine from now on." yet, it wasn't going to be fine, more like worse than ever. "okay, i trust you. but if something like that ever happens again, please come to me, promise?" "promise" i smiled. we finished eating and laughing. we decided to watch a movie, then the power went out. he turned on the flash to his phone, it was 10:46pm. he put the flash at me as i was laying my head on his chest. i lifted up my head, connecting my eyes with his as i felt so many butterflies going around inside me. that moment in time, i forgot about absolutely everything. i forgot about my father. i forgot about my terrible life. i forgot about school. i forgot about the gang. and most especially, i forgot about hayden. the boy i was crazy about. john is the only one who makes me feel like this, or at least i think. he leaned in, i did too, we started closing our eyes getting closer and closer to one another's lips.
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7 votes and i'll post another chapter! kinda didn't like this chapter but the next one will definitely be longer and better 💛
