I never thought that weeks would pass just like that. After that night when I let him go, things were more painful. But I tried to fool myself that everything's fine.
The recital was done. And I also got commended for a good job. My family came for the recital and Jungkook was there, thoughhe was hiding. Seongwoo said that I need to practice more. He was happy that I learned fast.
It was a nice sunny morning when I got a message.
Message from Ong:
Chubs! Let's have a drink? 8pm? Eunji is coming.
I had no choice but to say yes. I owe Seongwoo alot. He was always with me, and he knows that he's the first person I welcomed into my new life.
After dropping off from the mall, from Hoseok oppa's work, I went to the usual place where Seongwoo and i used to go. His friends were also there. And Eunji has just arrived.
Seongwoo and his friends has ordered food and soju. But after a while, his friends left. That leaves me with him and Eunji.
Seongwoo: Get a hold of yourself, Mi nam.
Eunji: She's drunk. And she won't listen to you.
Seongwoo: Maybe she'll listen once I say this.
I: what?
Seongwoo: I recently joined a raffle promo and I won tickets.
Eunji: For what?
Seongwoo: A trip to Paris.
I: Tss.
Eunji: Ticket for how many people?
Seongwoo: For 4. And it's an all expense paid trip.
Eunji: Can I have 1?
Seongwoo: Sure. And you, Mi Nam.
They both looked at me and begged.
I: Fine. But I'll just do this for you guys.
Seongwoo: chubs, moving on is not just erasing everything from your mind. Ypu have to face everything.
Eunji: That's what I'm telling her. She said she's okay but she ends up crying each night.
I: I thought it'd be easy.
I took a bottle soju and drowned myself with alcohol.
I: Don't I deserve to be happy?
Seongwoo: Chubs, you deserve all the happiness.
I: But this happened.
Eunji: Do not mind me asking this, but have you heard anything about Jungkook?
I: i haven't.
Eunji: Well that's good.
The bar singers came and Eunji smiled.
Eunji: Everytime I used to see bar singers, I remember Hoseok oppa and you, Ong.
I: Nado. And it reminds me of Paris.
Seongwoo: Do you wanna sing, Mi Nam?
I: No.
Eunji: oh come on. Please Mi Nam I miss hearing your singing voice.
I: Arasseo.
Seongwoo: I'll talk to the owner of this bar if he could let you.
🔹🔹🔹
I stood up at the mini stage and the intrumental has started.
I: 🎶You looked inside my fantasies And made each one come true Something no one else had ever found a way to do
A song that I know my heart will pour out.
I: 🎶I've kept the memories one by one Since you took me in I know I'll never love this way again
I: 🎶I know I'll never love this way again So I keep holding on before the good is gone I know I'll never love this way again Hold on, hold on, hold on
I've heard this song from Jin Hee's mom. I remember the first thing that came into my mind when I heard this. "i want to know how it feels."
I: 🎶A fool will lose tomorrow Reaching back for yesterday I won't turn my head in sorrow If you should go away
Now, I know how it feels like-- to love so much and to suffer like nothing else.
I: 🎶I'll stand here and remember Just how good it's been And I know I'll never love this way again
I knew I was shedding too much tears. My illusion tells me that Jungkook was infront of me.
I: 🎶So I keep holding on before the good is gone I know I'll never love this way again Hold on, hold on, hold on
The mic has dropped from my hand as I sobb. Everyone in the bar were clueless of what happened. But then Seongwoo came and hug me.
Seongwoo: It's okay, let it all out.
I: Nomu nomu, saranghae Jungkook-ah.
🗼2 days after🗼
Before going to the airport, I dropped by Jungkook's office to give him something. He was surprised to see me.
Jungkook: I was about to hug you, but i know you'll get mad at me.
I: How was it going?
Jungkook: I don't know, I wasn't visiting her.
I: I was asking about you.
Jungkook: Pretending to be strong.
I: But you have to. I'm just here to give you something.
I handed him the violin he gave me as a gift.
Jungkook: But this is---
I: But you have to. I'm just here to give you something.
I handed him the violin he gave me as a gift.
Jungkook: But this is---
I: That was your gift. I've used it well. And now I'm returning it to you.
Jungkook: Why?
I: That violin reminds me of the dreams that have shattered.
After saying goodbye, I went to the airport and saw Seongwoo on the waiting area.
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I: Where's Eunji?
Seongwoo: She said her dad needs an emergency operation.
I: Oh. It'll only be the two of us?
Seongwoo: Yes? But don't get me wrong. I won't do anything to you. Promise.
Seongwoo and I waited for our flight. And as we go inside the plane, we sat beside each other.
Seongwoo: Chubs?
I: Oh?
Seongwoo: i'll say something important once we arrive at Paris.
I: What is it?
I: Ong?
I: ONG!
His eyes were closed and it seems like he's already asleep.
