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Jens pov

Hours have passed and me and Nicole are still waiting. She's laying her head on my chest and I have my arms wrapped around her.

"How long does it take till they usually find out if she's okay?" She asks me quietly. "I don't know. But if it's been this long I'm sure there's something. They would've detected right away..if she was..you know.." I sighed.

"That's true.." she says.

"I'm so sorry" I said to her. "For?"

"Everything. She wouldn't be here if it wasn't for me. I know she wouldn't. I've been putting her through shit. I was just thinking of myself. I'm playing games but I didn't realize how bad it was on her side.."

Nicole doesn't reply and plays with a bracelet on my arm that's laying on her chest.

"..I've realized so much and if I could just fix everything right now I would. I want to apologize already. If she doesn't accept me back, then okay. But I just want her to know I forgive her and I want nothing but happiness for her.."

"She loves you Jennifer."

"I know.." I Said with my voice cracking. "Why did it take you so long?"

"I don't know. I'm stubborn. She doesn't even deserve me"

"She loves you just the way you are though! She's tried, she's cried at family events. She's thrown tantrums at our mom..it's bad"

"She's cried at family events?"

"Yeah..you're all she has on her mind."

"My goodness" I mutter.

It gets quiet again. I'm crying softly and silently.

"Should I go pick Gabriella? Do you know the address?" I ask. "I don't want to be alone if they ask for us" she says. "Okay" I said. "She'll be fine at our aunts. She won't understand what's going on" she says. "That's true.." I said.

An hour later

"For Remini?" The doctor asks and me and Nicole both quickly sit up.

"Yeah?" I ask. "Could...um, is it Nicole? Can you follow me?"

"Okay" she says. "Wait- how about the girlfriend?" I ask. "The patient said she has no girlfriend but she'll be happy to see her sister"

"She's awake?!" Nicole asks. "I-I-" I pause and watched them walk away.

I guess she doesn't want me to see her?

I wait another 30 minutes and Nicole texts me that it's best to just go home. Leah is in stable condition but doesn't want to see me.

So I left. I really didn't want to but I couldn't do anything.

Now I'm the one broken. I've been broken but things are all crashing down on me. This can't be real.

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Leahs pov

"How do you feel?" Nicole asks me. "Better. I'm sorry I drank so much and I didn't really think of the circumstances." I said.

"I'm just happy you're here" she says and gives me a hug.

"Is she still here?" I ask. "Jennifer? No she went home"

"Of course"

"She really wanted to stay. She said she'd stay till you got out but I told her not to." She says.

"What happened when you found out where I was?" I asked. "You were supposed to pick me up from the party. Mom and dad know you're here and they were going to take the morning flight since that's the closest one but I told them you're fine now so I made them stay there. But anyways I texted Jennifer asking if you were with her and she said no. So I told her where I was and she picked me up. We went to your house and found you passed out... and she even said that she loves you. But you weren't awake for that" she says.

"She said that?" I ask. Nicole nods her head. I close my eyes and sigh. Then I opened it back up. "Suddenly she cares so much when I'm about to die huh?"

"Don't say you were about to die"

"Well I was!" I said and Nicole keeps quiet.

"Where's my phone?" I ask. "Here" She says and hands it to me.

"I love you so much. I'm so sorry..I stayed for hours but apparently I couldn't go in your room. But I'll be home if you need me...I'm sorry Leah😔🖤💔"

"Thanks. But I'm done." I replied. She left me on read right away and I'm still surprised she's awake.

"Done?" She replies minutes later.

"I can't do this anymore. I want all this to be over. I'm done with these games. I need to move on. You're obviously not going to help out and fix our relationship so why should I keep  trying? Because I fucking love you. You say you do too but why are we here? Why am I in the hospital? I drank because I was depressed and you know why I'm depressed."

"I'm sorry"

"Don't keep saying sorry. I've tried that with you and I might do the same thing you've been doing to me. So good luck"

"Leah please. I didn't mean for all this to happen"

"Neither did I with me having sex with Jacob but...🤷🏻‍♀️"

"Lee.."

"Goodbye Jennifer. Thank you for everything."

"Baby is really sorry.."

"It took you to the point that I almost killed myself for you to finally realize things?" I replied and started hearing the monitor beat faster.

"Leah stop" Nicole says and takes my phone away.

"The anger is getting your heart rate to go even faster. We need you to calm down!" Nicole says.

"Alright alright" I said and took a deep breath.

Jennifer really just pissed me off. The time she wants to be sorry is when im on the hospital bed. Well fuck that. I don't need apologies. If mine don't get accepted neither will hers.

-

I got to go home the next day. Nicole picked up Gabriella then they both stayed at my house till our parents are back home.

"By the way I accidentally kept your spare key. I don't know if you want it back or.." Jennifer texted me. But I left her on read. I'm just relaxing at my couch with Gabriella. Nicole just left to buy some food for us. This is the only time I would let her use my car.

Honestly I didn't plan to drink this much but since I was drunk, I guess my depressed mood kept having my drunk mind to drink even more and never thought about what would happen if I drank too much which had me pass out. I don't want to blame Jennifer for all this. I blame myself. I'm so weak and I still haven't let her go. I feel lucky things didn't get worst and have me not be here because I've heard so many stories about people drinking so much, getting alcohol poisoning and dying.

This experience is pretty eye opening. Jennifer is gorgeous, cute, love her personality aside from when we're heavily fighting, the little things she does for me when we were together and I just loved everything the way it was when we first met and started giving each other those vibes that we both knew was more than just friendly vibes. But now it's time for me to move on. It's time for her to stop playing games. I know I won't recover quickly from it like I have in my past relationships but it's better than just dealing with her and waiting for her forgiveness. I could find someone else to make me happy. Or I could just focus on myself. I'm not even rushing for a relationship. Like I said, she just appeared in my life out of nowhere. I've always seen her in the past but never thought that deep about her. I just found her pretty. Little did I know I'd be where I am now with her. It's just all a mess.

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