Leahs pov
After a few drinks already hitting the both of us, we sat back down at our table. I laid my head on Jens shoulder as I just starting thinking about everything. I'm a sad drunk tonight.
I placed my hand on Jens thigh and just started playing with the rim of her dress. Then I slid my hand under her dress just to relax my hand on her leg.
What I'm thinking about is how Jen and I almost officially broke up. I almost really lost her. I love this woman more than I've ever loved someone and I know I'm really lucky because she's honestly the most gorgeous, loving, caring, and unique person ever. I know I'd be really jealous if she moved on. I'd never get over her. I really got fucked up over her. I cant even believe I almost killed myself because of her. This is why I've been taking it easy on drinking. I didn't drink that much tonight but I'm still sad..just a bit.
Jen rests her hand on top of mine and tilts her head looking down at me.
"What's wrong babe?" She asks softly. "Nothing"
She doesn't buy it though. She pushes me off her shoulder and makes me fully look at her. "Are you simpin?" She giggles. I fake a smile and look away.
"Lee" She says and touches my necklace. "I'm just thinking about stuff. But I'm fine"
"About what mama?"
"Noooothing Jen just leave it" I said.
"I'm not fucking you tonight unless you tell me" she says. I smile a bit more and look at her. Then she starts to smile. "Damn..that made you smile?? Ha..you really need sex don't you?" She asks.
"Shut up" I said.
"Talk to me" she says and gives me all her attention.
"I'm just thinking about..my life..our life. I almost died..I almost lost you...a lot has happened in the past and I kind of got over it but then I started over thinking about how life would be like if we actually did break things off officially and..I just know I would've been bad. I don't even know if I would be here." I said.
"Have you always had this..kind of depressed side of you before you met me? I mean like if anything has ever disappointed you so much that you'd have to drink away the feelings" she asks me.
"Not really."
She pouts and holds my hand over her lap. "I'm so sorry leah"
"No I know you are. I'm just over thinking. But don't worry. I have you now..I'm fine. I just had my moments. But thank you for listening to my thoughts because I have nobody else to express them to"
"You know I'm always here for you. Whenever you need to rant you know I'm here to listen and help you fix things. You're my girl. That's my job..I don't care how much it takes but I wanna make sure you're always okay" she tells me.
I suck the insides of my mouth and look down as my eyes starts getting watery. Even after everything that happened. I could tell deep inside she really loves me.
She lifts my head by the chin and kisses me softly.
"Don't cry baby were at a dinner" she giggles.
"how long is it?" I ask her.
"They have to give a lil toast then there's dancing but we could leave after the toast if you want. I'll just say the jet lag has us"
"Okay..please?" I nervously ask. "Yeah it's fine..but you're not tired right?" She asks me. "Why?"
"Nothing" She says in a high pitch and smirks then eyes me down. I smile and bite my lip. "Never tired for you" I said. "That's right" she says and places her hand on my thigh higher up and does a little massage.
