Love me the way I love you

10

Gia

After the show I walked right off and went straight for the showers. I just stood there crying alone for a while, then washed up and got out quickly. I looked in the mirror and I looked like a mess- red eyes, baggy eyes, and sad. I threw on leggings, the tour shirt, and Vans before walking out the bathroom. I tossed all my clothes into our hamper thing and packed up all my things.

"There you are" Calum mumbled to me. "We were looking for you."

I nodded "I just wanted to shower and go to sleep."

He nodded slowly staring at me "Alright, I'll see you on the bus later." I sighed and nodded slowly staring at him.

I didn't say anything and walked to the bus, it was about 30 minutes after the show. Usually there's not a lot of people since it takes a while to get out, but it was a walk to get to the bus. Although we were in the venue, the buses were in the parking lot where everyone just stands and waits for us. I put on my bag and sunglasses along with earphones, just walking to the bus.

Fans came up to me "Oh my god!" I sighed and walked away from them in another direction. "Can we get a picture?!" They caught up to me stopping me.

"Excuse me" I said making my way through the crowd to the bus. I noticed fans just looking at the buses from a distance, so I walked the long way around them to the buses.

"Hey! No fans!" Security yelled running at me.

I stopped walking and Jake sighed "I just want to sleep." He nodded and escorted me to the bus as fans crowed around me.

"Back up!" He opened the door and I got in. I could hear the fans screaming for me to come out and I sat there staring at the wall, then climbed into my bunk going on my phone.

I went through Instagram unfollowing a bunch of people that were fans or fan pages, so I only followed friends or music stuff, then did the same thing on Twitter. I unfollowed anyone who didn't have a verified blue check mark and closed my dms to fans. I spent a long while doing this, but it was pretty easy to get through in about a hour to do.

I decided to make a big bold move, I took a picture of the wall of my bunk.

. Don't ask me to sign anything or for a picture, probably don't come up to me either if you see me in public. All these years I work my ass off to prove to people I belong in this band and still no one sees that I do. All I get is hate and I'm over it all- the kill yourself, the boys would be better without you, or your using them for fame. I never thought this would be happening where I might actually wished I stayed in Italy and maybe I'm being ungrateful. It's gotten too far this time bc for a few seconds I really thought everyone would be happier without me. no one knows what's going on in our lives off stage and media, it's not what anyone thinks. Fans wonder why we aren't sharing videos or things with you anymore and it's simply bc if this, no one is ever happy with us or have something good to say about it. I can't be myself and I don't know who that is anymore, but since everyone thinks I'm a jackass gold digger I'll be that person since you all know her so well ✌🏼 and fuck those hashtags about we love you because if y'all did I wouldn't be feelings this way

It use to be real bands save fans and vice versa, but lately all it's been is tearing each other apart and it shouldn't be that way. This isn't going to be one sided respect anymore don't ask me for pictures or anything anymore. I'm gonna go disappear from life like you all asked for 😊 call me a drama queen if you want. I hear it all already

And thanks you to all the real ones who defend me, I see you guys 🖤

I posted it all over my media and turned my phone off staring at the wall of my bunk. I wiped the tears falling rolling down the side of my face.

Calum

We got on the bus after seeing Gia's post and immediately it blew up. I don't think she was being dramatic, she did the right thing.

I looked in her bunk and she laid there probably sleeping, Ashton and Luke were already in their bunks trying to sleep. I sighed and rubbed her back "Hey, you okay?"

Nothing.

"Wake me up if you want to talk or anything" I told her just in case she was awake. I pulled my shirt off and got in my bunk laying there on my back in silence.

I groaned and got out and headed in the back lounge sitting there popping a beer open. Kim walked in and looked at me "Shouldn't you be sleeping?"

"I'm not tired yet..."

She nodded "What was the act of Gia's today? What is she trying to do? Yelling with the bus door open, you know there's recordings of that all over the media? And that post? What is she going to get out of that?" Kim sounded a bit pissed off about it. It seemed like she was worried about our image.

I furrowed my eyebrows "It's been a rough couple of days for us and on top of that people are telling Gia all types of shit. Her bubble popped and she's not going to walk around taking that acting like it doesn't bother her. Gia stood up to herself, she defending herself." I rolled my eyes and took a sip of my beer.

"You guys are a band, one thing you guys do represent all of you. Remember the groupies? The strippers? Sneaking into clubs? That's what people sees you guys all and you're just cleaning up your acts now. You all go down, Calum" Kim clarified to me.

I huffed and got up "Then I guess we're going down then. Gia was right in what she did, she spoke up for herself and called people out on their shit." I walked out and threw my beer out.

I headed to the bunks and Gia's head was popping out of the curtains looking at me. I climbed in my bunk and closed my curtain going on my phone.

I went on twitter and Gia's icon was black with her name changed to ✌🏼✌🏼🖕🏼🖤. I checked her tweet and it had over 5 million retweets and nearly 7 million likes. Gia had almost 10 million followers on top of that.

I decided to retweet it and commented on it: you're sleeping rn and giving us the silent treatment. But you go hun and stand the fuck up for yourself, for a fact none of us would have done it. Fuck all the haters they're just jealous You got all my attention, G ❤️❤️