Love me the way I love you

23

Calum

I couldn't help the fact the Gia was with Shawn last night and it was torturing me to think about all the possible things that could've happened or that did happen. We all sat in the lobby waiting for our car to arrive to the hotel and Gia was just quiet staring at the ground.

I scrolled through twitter and came across a retweet from those fan account.

Lukeofyou retweeted: 5sosupdates
photos of Gia and Shawn from yesterday

I looked at the photos and it was them in his car, in an ice cream parlor, they were standing there hugging each other, one when Shawn was kissing Gia's head, another at this hike trail sitting together. I saw one where Shawn had his hands on Gia's waist just looking at her with a smile, that one got to me the most.

I groaned and kept scrolling to see more photos of those two out yesterday and it burned. I looked over at Gia and she was still staring at the ground. A whole bunch of articles were out about Shawn and Gia as the headlines.

Queen bee Giovanna Gianniotti drops rockstar Calum Hood for prince of pop Shawn Mendes

Giovanna Gianniotti cheats on Band member / boyfriend for Hottie Shawn Mendes

5 seconds of summer's Calum hood and Giovanna Gianniotti calls it quick while Giovanna is quick to move on with Shawn Mendes for a date out in NYC

Sources says both Shawn Mendes and Giovanna Gianniotti cancels meetings and interviews to go on their cute date

"Let's get going" Kim said getting up and we followed her out the door with security holding fans back as we got to the car.

Gia sat in the back with Luke and the whole time just on her phone staring at it with her airpods on. Ashton tapped my arm and furrowed his eyebrows then gesturing towards Gia, I knew exactly what he was asking about. I mouthed to him 'We broke up for good.'

He just sighed and looking at her then at me. It was quiet the whole ride and you could feel the tension in the air. We got out the car and headed inside for our interview.

Luke and Ashton ended up sitting beside each other, that left Gia and I next to each other and it was just awkward. She sat on the end letting out a long sigh putting on the headphones, I looked at her "Bananas and coconuts."

"What are you talking about?" She said annoyed and confused.

"Our jobs and relationships are two different things."

Gia didn't say anything back to me and our interview begun just talking about music and touring like usual, then Ashton and Luke would answer.

"Here's a question I never heard, what's your plan when you guys take your final bow on stage?"

We all froze up "Definitely never got that question."

"I don't know, probably just disappear from the face of the earth. Watch my future kids grow up and do everything I missed out on" Luke said.

"Me too, have a bunch of pets and sit at a beautiful Mountain View reminiscencing about everything" Gia said. "I don't know, this is all I have left. I haven't really thought about a life outside this."

"I definitely want to settle down and move back to Sydney" Ashton said.

"Are you all going to friends still?"

"Of course, this is family. It'd take a lot for us to not be friends. We been through the darkest times of our lives together and helped pull each other out. It isn't just anything you throw away" I spoke up. "At the end of the day, it's us against the world every time."

After a few more questions the interview needed and we headed outside to take pictures. Gia didn't even bother to look twice at me, I sighed and walked towards her "Please, just talk to me later."

//

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to accuse you of cheating" I told Gia. We sat in my hotel room later that night and she just nodded. "Can you say something?"

Gia looked at me "I do love you... I don't know what to do..."

I sighed "It was just a fight, Gia. We'll get pass this together."

"I haven't even got passed my dad dying, I'm going to AA meetings on the side, I'm seeing a therapist, the whole world is on my shoulders, and the passed months between us has been a shitshow... you don't get it Calum. I'm literally exhausted and burnt out" She cried. Gia sat on the bed "Just to get through the day I'm dying for a drink and I'm tired of feeling like this..."

I didn't even know what to say. There was nothing I could say that could change everything. "Babe, I'm sorry and I could help you. And we'll do what you need to be better." It was all I could do. "I'll be there for you."

Gia sighed "There's only so much you could do and I could do. I don't even control my own life anymore..."

"It's a bump in a road, you just need to push through it. I know you're exhausted, but I can't loose you like this" I begged. "Giovanna, not like this please."

She looked away from me "Calum... I'm sorry..."

I clenched my jaw tight "You don't get to call quits because it gets hard. That's why I'm here, I'm here for you anything you need, just please don't do this to us" I begged. Tears fell from my eyes and Gia looked away from me "Please... I love you..."

"I know you do, I love you too, baby" She cried. "I have to do this for myself. I need to make myself okay to make us stronger, I need to fix myself for you..." My head dropped "This is only temporary and I'll come back to you."

I nodded slowly then wrapped my arms around her "I'm always going to be here for you no matter what, don't even question that." I pulled away and held her face in my hands wiping her tears with my thumb "You're one of the strongest girls I've ever came across... Don't doubt your strength because that's how you'll get better." She nodded, "Do this for yourself first because I want you to be better and healed, don't do it because of me... regardless I'll love you."