Gia
When I got back to the hotel it was late, very late. Shawn has dropped me off and walked me to the lobby, then left when I got in the elevator. I checked my phone and nothing from Calum, but I got an individual text from Ashton and Luke nearly three hours ago.
Ashton: hey, you okay? I told him about the ring bc he was really piss about the number. He feels bad, but it got to him when you said you deserve someone who can trust you.....
I decided to reply back.
Me: sorry I just got back to the hotel.
And I'll try to be okay. I just can't seem to ever get a break from anything. I should have someone who can trust what I say and why would he be so mad still after you told him what I was doing. You were there with me after that we were at the jewelry store for almost two hours by the time we were done.I checked Luke's text.
Luke: wya. Cal is at my room now. I'm sure he didn't mean what he said to you too. Just call or something pls
Me: I done with him Luke. It's just too complicated to be dating especially with me and Cal it's too hard and look at us now it's ruining the band. That's all I got left and I can't let a relationship throw that away for me or all of us.
He did mean what he said or he wouldn't have said thatQuickly I got a text back.
Luke: he's just jealous and drunk. It's normal.
I rolled my eyes and got to the room laying down.
Me: I shouldn't feel like shit bc of him. I already feel like crap
Luke: couples argue, it's normal. He's just doesn't want to loose you
Me: look at us now....
Ashton texted me back.
Ashton: he's a guy and he's going to get jealous. It doesn't defend what you guys argued about, but he does love you
Me: he should trust me period.
I set my phone down and quickly changed out of my clothes into pajamas, but I noticed all of Calum's stuff were actually gone. I sighed and sat on the edge of the bed, then saw the box for the ring sitting on the table.
I got up and grabbed it, I opened it and the ring was still sitting in there. Perfect.
I got back in bed and stared at the ceiling, then there was a knock at the door. I ignored it, but the knocking continued. I got up and checked to see who it was and it was Calum standing there with his hair all messed up and in pajamas.
"Come on, just open the door" he mumbled continuing to knock.
I stood there about to open the door, but I stopped myself.
"Gia, come on" He said louder.
I walked away from the door and laid down back down in bed with my head under the pillow to muffle the sounds. "Gia! I'm sorry!" He yelled through the door.
I just laid there as tears slowly fell down the side of my face.
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I woke up in the morning and my phone was ringing "What?"
"You have an interview at 12, you need to be ready by 11" Kim told me.
I groaned and hung up on her, just to get a call back from her "What?!"
"Don't hang up on me, okay. Don't bring you're personal problems with Calum into your business life. You don't get to stop living your life because they still depend on you to do your part" She lectures.
"Okay, I'll be ready" I mumbled hanging up and laying there staring at the empty spot next to me. Then slowly got up getting and outfit out, I went very simple, black Chelsea boots, black skinny jeans, and a black Guns and Roses shirt tucked in with a creme Sherpa bikers jacket. After I hopped in the shower and started getting ready for today.
While doing my make up I got a knock on my door, I got up and checked to see Calum standing there in a black trousers, boots, and a tee shirt tucked in with a leather jacket. He knocked again and I sighed opening it a little bit since I was only in a robe with my hair and make up half done.
"Can we talk?" He asked me. I shrugged and didn't say anything, "Please."
I opened the door and sat back down on the chair continuing my makeup "What do you want to talk about?"
"Us. I didn't mean any of that. I just- I don't know I panicked a little bit when I saw the number..."
I rolled my eyes as I blended my make up in, "You know that two hours I was gone, I was out getting you a ring and Ashton was helping me find on. In the process I bought Luke and ash a ring. Ash even told me he told you from the beginning." I glanced at him in the mirror "You still had the nerve to say that I was cheating on you and up to something with Shawn."
"I'm sorry, I don't know what to say. I fucked up and was being an idiot."
I didn't say anything and just did my make up.
"Can you say something please?"
I sighed "I'm tired Calum. I'm tired of all this bullshit that's coming one after another, we're in a weird place, my dad dies, I go to jail, I have nothing and wasted a shit tone of money, I went to rehab, and I'm not done grieving and I didn't even get a chance to do it because I threw away the past two months of my life down the drain. I'm back at square one again."
He nodded "Okay then, and I'm sorry I can't be there for you. I don't know how to..."
"It doesn't matter anymore... I'm done Calum. I'm sorry, but we've been going full circle for the past five years. It's not working for a reason and if we keep trying the band is going to fall apart..."
"Why are you giving up so easily on us?" He mumbled staring at me.
I sighed "Because I'm exhausted and tired Calum" I said as my voice broke. "I don't know how much longer I could keep up with the bullshit and pretending I'm okay and happy because I'm not... I'm miserable and I don't know what to do" I cried.
Calum just nodded not saying anything. I finished my makeup and looked in the mirror closely to see if I like it. He just watched me through the mirror.
"Why did you think I was cheating on you?" I asked him changing the topic.
Calum looked down and shrugged "I don't know. It was the first thing that came to mind, then I just panicked. When you said you were with Shawn after you walked out, I don't know it was like you were."
I sighed and not to question him anymore because it was getting really sad in here. "All we did was get ice cream, sat at this peaceful place, wrote a song, then that was it."
Calum nodded and got up "So we're done?" He mumbled.
I turned around in my seat looking at him, then nodded slowly. "I'm sorry..."
I watched as his jaws clenched tight and walked out the room without saying anything.
I sat back and sighed staring at the ground, before getting up and changing into my outfit laid out on the bed. I reached for my phone and texted Shawn.
Me: we officially broke up.... I feel so guilty.
Immediately I got a text back.
Shawn: it's gonna be hard you were with Calum for so long and you love him also
You gonna be okay?Me:🤷🏻♀️
I'll text you later I need to start getting ready for my interviewShawn: Okay ❤️
I couldn't help but grin a little bit at my phone. It wasn't because I was crushing on Shawn, but it was just that he knew exactly what I wanted to hear and he's always there for me.
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FanficAfter Calum Hood and his best friend who also happens to be his ex girlfriend Gia DiCaprio become friends with lots of benefits, they both still had feelings. Calum watched as Mia partied hard and hooked up with guys, while she was was the only one...