size zero ღ changlix

cinque

trigger warning

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felix woke up feeling more groggy than he did the night before. his head felt heavy as if he were spinning. his stomach growled lowly as he deprived his body of nutrients. he glanced around his bedroom to see empty beds besides the one he was in. the dormitory was quiet, it felt weird when he left his room and nobody was sat down eating breakfast. he furrowed his brows before glancing into hyunjins room then changbins room and nobody was there. he quickly pulled out his phone to call woojin.

"hey where are—"
"we're out right now felix. see you later, bye." woojin interrupted him before quickly hanging up. he shook it off as he walked into the bathroom. he sighed deeply before getting undressed for a shower.

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as felix stepped out, he grabbed the scale before praying the numbers were lower. he stepped onto the scale, watching the numbers light up. 128.0 lbs. "what..." he stepped off before stepping back on. 128.0 lbs. he wondered what he was doing wrong. why wasn't he stick thin? it's been a day, he should've at least lost a pound. he quickly slipped on his clothes before rummaging through the cabinets. there had to at least be diet pills or detox pills— anything. how did jeongin do it? a smile grew on his face as he read, 'keto weight loss pills.' he quickly poured two pills onto his palm before going to the kitchen to force them down with water.

his head snapped up as he heard the front door open and laughter quickly filled the air. "hey hyung," felix said with a smile only to be glared at by changbin. his eyebrows knitted together in confusion. he walked into the living room where everyone was sat on the couch or the floor with smiles plastered on their face. "hey guys..." felix said quietly faking a quick smile as minho paused the show on the television to turn towards him. jeongin looked up at him with saddened eyes. nobody said anything to him, he stood there without another word spoken.

"jeongin? hey, hi, what's up?" he stammered out awkwardly yet jeongin just shrugged without even looking into his eyes. the tv was quickly turned on and everyone was conversing as if he wasn't there. "i'm right here! why are you guys ignoring me?" chan lowered the volume before sighing loudly.

"felix, we're doing something right now." was all he said before averting his attention elsewhere. that was enough to set felix off. he felt ignored and worthless, they didn't even say hello to him when they got home. everything was about jeongin. always jeongin. jeongin this, jeongin that. he felt like crying. he was so built up over nothing. they were clearly angry at him and he couldn't accept that.

he stomped his way back to his room, slamming the door behind him before throwing himself on the lower bunk bed. he held the pillow to his face as tears painted his cheeks. he let out a choked sob as he felt his head heat up quickly. he felt as if he was gonna puke. he wailed loudly before throwing the pillow onto the floor angrily. nobody cared enough to even check up on him.

"stupid, i'm so stupid..." felix muttered before standing walking over to jeongin's desk. he pulled a pencil sharpener out of the drawer. tears fell from his cheeks as he attempted to pull out the blade of the sharpener. his vision was blurred as tears continued to flood out of his eyes. he whined lowly as he pulled apart the sharpener. he pulled up his sleeve, looking down at the pale skin. he stood up abruptly as he heard the door open and slam against the wall. "what's wrong?" changbin asked as he walked over to the desk. felix continued to cry, not even hiding the sharpener he pulled apart. changbin looked at the mess felix was then down at the blade and the fact that his sleeve was pulled up. "felix you didn't..." he grasped his wrist, pulling up both his sleeves. he quickly pulled him into a tight hug.

"s-sorry h-hyung..." he whispered, letting his tears soak up into changbins gray t-shirt. "why would you even think about doing that? felix tell me," he grabbed the sharpener and blade before shoving them into the pockets of his joggers. felix shrugged before attempting to walk back to the bed only to feel a rush of heat run over his body. he held the frame of the bed before heaving loudly, he breathed heavily as sweat coated his body. "i-i don't f-feel well..." he whispered before collapsing onto the floor, his knees giving out. he panted heavily as he laid his head on the cold wood floors.

"felix are you okay!" he shook the younger male. his forehead was burning up yet his hands were cold.

"can you hear me? felix say something." only to hear felix pant uncontrollably, his eyes closing before opening, in attempt to stay conscious.

"hyungs! help me! something his wrong with felix!" changbin called out to the members in the other room. his face was full of concern as he pointed at the boy on the floor. chan was quick to set boy upright. "what happened? did he eat breakfast?" everyone was silent. "we left early..." chan sighed before pushing back felix's bangs. felix's head fell into chan's arms as he fell unconscious.

"d-do we call someone?" seungmin panicked as he grabbed his phone.

"n-no i think he's just sick... i'll tuck him into bed and watch him. okay? guys just don't worry. and changbin we need to talk later." everyone nodded in synch as they left the two boys alone.