size zero ღ changlix

venti

trigger warning!

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once again, the 8 members were joined together in the waiting room of the hospital. the last place any of them wanted to be. it was nearly 1am, they had been waiting 3 hours or so to hear from the nurses. hyunjin and seungmin were both asleep, heads resting on one another. chan and woojin were trying to calm jeongin down from a panic attack. felix and changbin just sat in silence with their fingers intertwined, staring at the white walls in front of them.

minho was pacing around the bathroom, he was gnawing at his lip in order to suppress his sobs. he gripped on the edge of the sink with his head hung low. he wanted to tell them the truth— what he knows about the situation but he felt so lost. he didn't want to admit to his shame. especially to the people he loves most. he felt so stupid. beyond that.

while wiping away his tears with the sleeve of his sweater, he left the bathroom to join the rest of the members. he stood in front of them, nervously picking at the skin around his nails. "uh, chan..." he started, receiving a worrisome glance from the older male. "yes?"

"i need to speak to you... privately please," the other members looked at him but didn't say anything. he led chan down the hall before breaking into a fit of tears.

"i-it's my fault, it's all my fault," he cried into chan's shoulder, letting his tears soak into his shirt. chan hummed, "you weren't even there. it's not your fault at all," he stroked his hair in attempt to calm him down.

"i-it was my drugs. i left jisung alone with my drugs. i wasn't expecting him to get into th-" chan cut him off, pulling away from the hug. "what drugs are you talking about?"

"uh— cocaine..." he stared directly at his feet, not acknowledging the boy in front of him.

"why in the fuck are you using drugs? why did you even have them in your fucking room to begin with?" chan wasn't necessarily angry, just upset that he never mentioned using drugs in the first place. "i went to a party a couple nights ago and picked up cocaine, i was just going to try it. i'm not an addict or anything, so i was waiting a few days until i got the chance to use it. today, i left jisung alone and he must've been going through my night stand, found the cocaine and used too much of it..." his voice was small, hidden behind a mask of pure fear. chan released a heavy sigh, "im not going to tell anyone because i don't want to bail your ass out of jail. i won't mention it to the other members either but minho, you are so fucking stupid sometimes."

minho nodded in agreement, wiping the snot from under his nose. "i didn't think jisung was going to use it... i would've never wanted this to happen. i really had no idea," he rambled on in which chan stopped him. "minho, it's okay. jisung will be okay, just know that our group is already under enough stress with jeongin and felix being sick. so don't you ever bring drugs into the apartment again. not even to try it," he engulfed minho in a quick hug before walking back to where the others were at. woojin was talking to a male nurse, for what seemed like awhile.

"so?" chan asked, seeing woojin gather his things up.

"we won't be able to see him tonight. he said to come back tomorrow to visit and jisung should be released in a number of days," a wave of relief washed over all the members. they were scared shitless but were beyond ecstatic to hear he was going to recover fine.

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everyone was back at the dormitory, in their own rooms doing whatever. felix was sitting on the bunk he shared with changbin, watching the older male change into grey sweatpants and nothing else. he flicked off the lights before joining felix in bed.

"binnie, you're really brave.. you know that?" felix smiled, gazing deeply into changbins tired eyes. he nodded, "i just want everything to be normal again.." his voice cracked but no tears were seen. felix agreed, pulling himself under the covers to keep warm.

"everything will be okay. thank you for all you do," he replied, leaning over to kiss changbin. his smile faded before connecting their lips, this time with a lot more passion. changbin pulled away to shift felix onto his back so he could be on top, connecting their lips again. the feeling of changbins tongue gliding against felixs' lower lip caught him off guard, but nonetheless, opening his mouth a bit to deepen the kiss. felix shifted his hands down changbins torso, gently touching his warm skin.

felix was surprised when changbins kisses moved down his jawline to his neck. he whimpered quietly as he gently bit his skin, feeling the way felix squirmed under his touch. felix was quick to cover his mouth after releasing a moan— which was the best thing to changbin. he pulled away, leaving a small peck on his neck before looking at the flustered boy. his cheeks were bright red and his mouth was opened just a bit. "you've never done that..." his voice was quiet, still shocked that he openly moaned into changbins ear.

"you're just so irresistible sometimes," changbin smiled, moving over onto the bed, earning a whine from felix.

"cuddles?" he asked with gleaming eyes, which of course, changbin complied.

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a/n i think i'm finally going to republish my other stories lol it's been a minute. also, you guys don't need to keep calling me author, just call me maya! anyways, thank you for the support as always <3. my dm's are always open if you guys need someone to talk to.