size zero ღ changlix

dieci

trigger warning!
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felix pretended to sleep in his bed when the other dorm mates got home from practice. he was afraid they would bombard him with questions and force him to eat dinner with them. he opened his ears to the sound of his bedroom door open. "are you sleeping?" changbin quietly asked, brushing the younger males bangs away from his face. he smiled lightly as he heard no response.

"okay... sleep well." he placed a kiss on his forehead before flicking the lights off and gently shutting the door behind him. his cheeks were flushed pink from what changbin did, if only he wasn't pretending to be asleep. he sighed, sitting up and listening in on his mates outside the door. it was evident they were all distracted by the television, guaranteeing that nobody would walk in on him. he turned the bedside lamp on before reaching under the bunk bed to grab a yoga mat. he laid it out on the floor before pressing his body against it. he laid for a moment, rearranging his thoughts as he stared at the popcorn ceiling. his head was spinning for minutes on end, he felt too weak to even do the most basic of exercises but he still did so.

he exhaled slowly, starting with sit-ups. he decided on 3 reps of 50. all he thought about was changbin and how the elder male cared so deeply about it. he weighed his views, declaring he was more than likely falling for him. just the thought of him gave him butterflies in his lower stomach. he rested his hands on his abdomen after finishing 25 of the first rep. he didn't even want to be working out, he'd rather be sleeping yet he needed this. laying around all day burns no calories and he won't be getting any thinner unless he does this. if jeongin works out in his free time, then felix should too. somehow, it was like a game to him. he dreamt about being as thin as jeongin and eventually when he meets that point, he might not be able to stop. the gradual addiction of counting calories and forcing himself to vomit will stick with him to the point of breaking.

felix felt panic rise to his head as the youngest male walked through the door. he stood with furrowed brows. "i thought you were ill?" he questioned, shutting the door before walking over to felix on the floor. he was out of breath and embarrassed he had to catch him doing that despite lying. "i-i was..." he mumbled, sitting up to look up at him.

"you're literally working out right now. if you were feeling better, why didn't you say anything?" he reached his hand out to pull the older male into his feet. he hesitantly took his hand and stood to meet eye contact. "i don't know," he muttered, biting the inside of his cheeks nervously. "why are you working out anyways? you're going to overwork yourself." felix wanted to say 'says you' but changed his mind, knowing how hurt the youngest male gets.
"i just felt like it." he took a seat on the lower bunk.

"you're losing weight, lixie." he blurted, not daring to look away from his eyes despite the heavy tension in the air. "i am not!" felix exclaimed, scoffing lowly as if he was truly upset he guessed right.

"i know what you're doing. vomiting? working out? plus, i see you at dinner placing your food on the other members dishes," he spoke out.

"you do the same thing! why don't you fuck off already," felix strutted his way out of the room to meet the members in the living room. he immediately caught changbins eyes. "are you okay?" he asked, walking over to meet the blonde boy. felix nodded slowly, glancing anywhere but his eyes. he was afraid the contact would make him blush lightly. "why don't you take a seat and i'll make you some food. okay?" he smiled. it was that smile that shot felix through the heart every time. it was as if the clouds cleared the sky and it was summer again. he adored it.

"okay..." felix walked over to take changbins spot on the couch next to seungmin and jisung. the two happily invited him to sit with them. "it feels like forever since i've seen you in a good state!" jisung said, "look at you! aw so cute," he squished his cheeks between his fingers. despite the giggles erupting in the room, felix couldn't help but to feel hurt. he tried so hard to lose weight yet there was still fat on his cheeks that anyone could blankly see. "stop it hyung," he swatted his hands away before earning a cheeky smile from him.

"where did jeongin go?" chan asked, counting the heads in the room to make sure he wasn't just hiding. everyone shrugged in unison before felix spoke up. "he's in our room," in which chan mouthed an 'oh' before walking into the shared room.

he entered the dimly lit room to see jeongin mutely crying on his bed bunk. "what's wrong?" chan reached his hand up to meet the crying boys cheek, wiping away the tears.

"m-my heart hurts..." he mumbled, "i feel like m-my chest is t-tightening," jeongin cried softly, his lip quivering between his braces. chan released a sigh, "oh innie, is it just heart burn? should i get you some tums and a snack?" jeongin nodded along with his words. "i'll grab that for you. just lay down and rest, okay? you'll be okay," he smiles, helping to lay the frail boy back down on the bed. jeongin placed a hand on his heart, unaware of the sudden failure in his body. chan never would've thought it would be more than heartburn.

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a/n y'all sorry for the cliff hanger lmao