size zero ღ changlix

sedici

a/n this is a long ass chapter lmao i hope you all enjoy.

trigger warning!
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felix had finished his dinner after admitting to his love for changbin. "i love you too." and this is where he is now. head laid on changbins chest as he dozed off. he listened to his heart beat, feeling the way his chest rose and fell. he began to worry, what if changbin knew what he was doing? was it that obvious? he pulled the blanket up to his chin before letting out a quite exhale.

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felix woke up in an empty bed. he glanced around his room, taking note that nobody else was with him. he slid out of the comforting blankets, stepping out into the exposed air. his head spun as he felt a migraine edging on. he stared up at his appearance in the mirror. he actually looked seemingly thin. his cheek bones protruded through his skin and his eyes appeared sunken in. he was sick. he ran his hands through his brittle hair, watching as several strands fell from his hands. he wasn't worthy of changbins love.

"oh, you're up," changbin entered the bedroom with a bowl of cereal in one hand. felix reached out for the bowl, assuming it was for him. he sat back down onto the bunk, feeling a rush of heat reach his head. he hesitantly brought the spoon to his lips, engulfing the cereal. "you have an appointment at 1 today," changbin said, unable to look directly at felix for his reaction.

"no, changbin you didn't," felix set the spoon back down, looking at the elder with desperate eyes. he felt suddenly anxious like everyone was against him. fear entered his mind. he knew he had gained weight, he knew he was sick, he didn't want to own up to any of it yet. he wasn't ready. "i'm sorry, i had to."

felix felt his eyes well with tears. "no no no," he mumbled, sniffling quietly as tears fell down his pale cheeks. changbin reached out to brush his tears away only to have his hand swatted away. "why did you do that! i-i can't go to the fucking doctors!" he shouted, anger dripping from each word he spoke. he allowed tears to trail down his sunken cheeks. changbin wrapped his arm around felix, massaging his shoulder lightly. felix abruptly stood up, knocking the bowl on the floor, causing a loud shatter to bounce off the walls. "why- why am i going to the doctors! changbin, are you fucking kidding me!" he shouted back, stumbling back onto a shard of glass. he let out a series of painful gasps, pulling his foot up to see the wound.

"you're sick felix. now sit down, i need to get the glass out," changbin stepped around the glass, guiding felix down onto the bunk. he wailed loudly, shoving the older male away from him. "i-i can do it!" he cried, pulling the glass out with trembling hands. he wiped the blood with his fingers, looking at the red substance smear. "sit here and i'll clean the mess up," changbin sighed, walking around the cereal spilt everywhere.

felix shimmied out the door, glancing at changbin as he dug through the closet for a broom. he quickly slipped on slides despite the blood tingling from the wound. he broke out into a run as he shoved through the front door of their dorm, carrying his weight down the stairs and out the apartment building. he let his feet guide him to the bridge not far from his dorm. he panted as he rested his body against the guardrails, staring down at the shimmering water. he exhaled slowly into the freezing air, refusing to avert his attention to the heavy footsteps beside him.

"what the hell felix, why'd you run off?" changbin expressed urgently, grabbing his wrist to bring him back to the dormitory. "i don't want to go!" felix cried, pulling his arm away from the older male. he continued to back away slowly, biting at his bottom lip. changbin released a sigh as he practically begged felix to come with him.