size zero ღ changlix

diciannove

trigger warning!
*long chapter*

also, were pretending that changbin is ever so slightly taller than felix. so just go wit it(;

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it's been a solid two days since felix started his meal plan and so much has changed for him. when felix made his usual trip to the bathroom after dinner to weigh himself, he was startled to not find the scale anywhere.

he looked in the mirror in front of him, his face painted with apprehension as he shoveled through every cabinet and drawer in the bathroom to find the scale. he checked everywhere. "fuck..." he murmured, hearing a light knock on the door.

"are you almost done in there?" it was jisung, whining about how bad he had to piss. felix rolled his eyes, "uh— just a second." he retorted before a bright idea came to mind. the weight loss pills. he then searched through the same cabinets and drawers, disappointed to find nothing of the sort. there weren't even razors in the bathroom anymore. he gave up, leaving the bathroom without even completing a body check first.

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it was later at night, around 8:15pm and all the members were doing their own thing. chan was at the gym with changbin and it seemed like everyone else was just having a lazy day. same with felix though. but that doesn't answer his question about the missing scale and pills. he could only think of one person who would've hidden it from him and that's chan. "oh shit!" felix exclaimed, realizing he would've just hidden the scale in his room or something. cause why would he throw it out? he shuffled over to chan's room, closing the door behind him so nobody would see him mindlessly in the other members room. the room was a bit messy with clothes thrown about. he glanced around the room before peeking under the bed. 'bingo' he thought, pulling out the scale from under his bed. he grabbed the scale before sneaking out of chan's room and back to his own.

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he hesitantly stripped down to his underwear, actively avoiding the mirror in front of him. he stepped onto the scale, tightly shutting his eyes listening to the scale beep below his feet. he looked down. 92.8 lbs. he had already nearly gained 3 pounds. he quickly stepped off, shoving the scale under his bunk as his mind flooded with toxic thoughts. he sat down with anxiety coursing throughout his body. his hands were trembling with sweaty palms, he was finding it increasingly hard to catch his breath. "you're fine..." he kept telling himself, bouncing his leg up and down, trying to steady his breathing. he didn't want to gain weight. he is fat. and he had to change that.

felix was pulled away from his thoughts as he heard the front door of the dormitory close. he was hoping it was changbin because he missed him throughout the day. he continued to calm himself down, pressing his thumb into the palm of his hands to avoid a panic attack. he suddenly stood up from the sound of the bedroom door opening. it was just changbin.

"binnie," felix trailed over to changbin, immediately engulfing him into a hug. he leaned over and wrapped his arms around his neck, inhaling his scent. although, it wasn't really pleasant considering he just returned from the gym. changbin seemed taken aback, slightly stumbling backwards before wrapping his arms around felixs' bare waist.

"you okay, lix?" he asked, still holding him close to his body. felix just nodded, resting his head on changbins shoulder. "why don't you have clothes on?"

felix didn't even think twice about putting his clothes back on. rookie mistake. "oops, i forgot to put them back on. just don't look at my body please, i know i'm undeniably a fatass and disgusting but-" changbin cut him off by placing a soft kiss on his lips. brushing felixs' bangs behinds his ears as their lips came in sync. "you're undeniably beautiful— i would never ever think such things about you. never," he smiled, picking up the clothes off the floor and handing them to felix. with a blush scattering his cheeks, felix thanked him quietly.