S.E.A.L IV: All I Need

Chapter 15

~Nia~

I don't know what to do Tricia, I mean nothing happened but now he's asking questions and calling me like something did. I don't understand why he would feel like you are just all of the sudden attracted to him like that. I mean did you give him some type of signal that you were? I wasn't sure if I should tell anyone what happened and why I left Terrance's birthday party early, but it was weighing heavily on me and I needed to vent. Don't think I left to go see Javon just because he called, I left because like always his mother was calling me like a maniac talking about, he took a whole bunch of pills and was locked in his room. When I get there, he's completely fine. I mean completely fine and in fact he was there playing games with his daughter. By which I didn't even know he had a kid, but it would explain a lot stuff that he told me and the toys that I'd seen the last few times I was over there. The question I had is if he had a whole child where was her mother?

Nia! No, I never lead him on to think there was something more. Then why the hell is he asking you if you have feelings for him? I don't know I said shaking my head. She looked at me for a moment, you're lying. What! You're lying I know you are, let's not forget I've been your friend over 10 years Nia I know you. I didn't...swear on your child. I am not swearing on my children. Swear on your unborn one. I sucked my teeth when she said that. She's literally the only one that knew about my miscarriage, I didn't even tell Charli because it happened before I could figure out a way to tell him.

Why you bring that up? Because I want the truth, just tell me did you lead him on? There was a brief moment where there may have been something, but his mom came in and I came back to reality. I am married with 2 kids what I look like messing up my marriage. And the same way you get with someone is the same way that you lose them. I am glad you remembered that, because you never find a man like Charli. He's not all of that. What you mean he ain't all of that, that man loves you through it all. Everything Nia and Javon is what a new piece of dick. Oh my god Tricia, now you sound like Kadence. It's the truth and you know if she knew she'd slapped that Brazilian weave out you head. Excuse you this is all my hair baby! Women pay good money to get hair like this. Don't flatter yourself we all know you been adding in hair and you know Kadence would slap you if you mess up your marriage. Much less Kadence, think about Jay, what would she do to you if she found you were fucking around on her nephew. Please don't even bring up her name because I am not about that ass beating cause trust me, I've seen her in action. Oh, I know you have and I know that you will keep a right mind and stay away from this man because you playing with fire you definitely not trying to get burned, are you? No, I am not I said sniffing a little.

Aww don't be a baby, put your big girl thong on and deal with the shit. I looked at her and rolled my eyes laughing. Why couldn't you just say panties like normal people I said looking at the shoes on the rack. Because I know you and half the time you ain't wearing panties. I do too, that happened once. And coincidentally you ended up pregnant. Yeah, yeah where is Kadence at anyway she was supposed to be shopping with us. You know I don't know I called her but she never returned my phone call. That's strange you know she be the first person to want to shop. Right!

So off my drama, how's the process going for you, I mean did you decide on that one guy? It's going really good I've just been going to the doctors a lot to make sure that my body is still in good shape and I've also been seeing my therapist. Therapist! Yeah before I even went to see about getting pregnant, I started going to therapist because before I can bring a baby into this world, I need to know that I am mentally stable to do so. What do they think? They agree with me that I need to pace myself and not get to overly happy. Which I totally understand because even my doctor said the same thing. Given my medical history with the accident, it's a blessing that I can even get pregnant and when I do, I'll have to be careful because any wrong move and I could...you know we're here for you anything you need we got you. I know yall do and I am extremely blessed to have people that care about me so much. Tear I said wiping a fake tear. Ughh you're too much. You love me anyway. Whatever, what about these she said pointing to a pair of 6-inch heels. Girl really! What they hot and they red bottoms. Tricia, I have two kids and bad knees you really think I am going to put on some 6-inch heels and possibly break my neck. You wear heels all the time though. 3 inch and lower I don't go no higher because I am not trying to hurt myself. Okay what about these then, same shoe but smaller heel. Those are nice, I wonder if they come in silver? Well let's see she said motioning for the sales clerk to come over to us.