S.E.A.L IV: All I Need

Chapter 28

~Charli~

You good man, you been working out a lot lately, Phil said as we worked out. I am good just a lot on my mind. Tell me about it. What's going on with you I said putting down the weights. Faith is getting calls now. Calls for what? Gigs her demo got into the right hands and now they wanting her to sing on stuff. That's good man I thought you'd be happy to hear that. I am little jealous what if she gets popular. You afraid she'll leave you behind. Uhh yeah, I am. Man you don't even have to worry about that, Faith knows what she has and even if she does get famous, she's not going to leave you behind. How do you know that for sure? Cause Nia didn't... Cause I know she won't she loves you and I know she wants you to do what your dreams are too. Yeah you know I got that job too. And when were you going to tell me that? I don't know it just kind of slipped my mind. Slipped my mind, my ass, why you ain't tell me for real that hurts that you wouldn't tell me. I figured you were dealing with so much stuff that you wouldn't want to hear it. I sucked my teeth and looked at him. Don't matter you still should have told me I am your big homie you know I've always been here for you. I know he said nodding.

The last few weeks have been tense; I wasn't lying when I told Nia I wasn't leaving our house and I haven't so we've been basically co parenting in our own home. I stay in the guest room and she stays in our bedroom. We try to make it as normal as possible for the kids so they won't know anything. For the most part they haven't, to them it looks like we're back to normal. But we are far from back to normal, if anything I think we're drifting further apart. I asked to go to her first doctor's appointment and she told me no that I'd stress her out and then she took Tricia with her instead. That shit hurt on so many levels because I wanted to be there for her and our baby and she stripped me of that. So, I turned it back on her, I started taking the kids out without her and last weekend I through a bbq at the house invited everyone without even telling her. That may have been a little too much because that night she actually spoke to me. Well scratch that she cussed my ass out then told me to sleep with one eye open. That night I locked the bedroom door and put the dresser in front of it before I went to sleep. Since then we just been ignoring each other.

You and Nia good he said pulling me out of my thoughts? Huh! Yall good? Yeah why would you ask that? The BBQ last weekend she didn't look to excited when she came home and saw all them people at her house. Mhmp she wasn't happy but oh well she'll get over it. For real Charli, you really feel that way? At this point I don't give a damn she wanna be on some petty shit and not invite me to the doctor's appointment I should be able to have a bbq at the house and not tell her. You should have just gone! She made it very clear she didn't want me there. And when has that ever stopped you, she's your wife and she's pregnant instead of being petty you should be trying to get her back. And what would make you so knowledge about our relationship? I've been around since the beginning pretty much; I know both of yall and what Nia wants is not for you to be petty she want's you to prove her wrong. Prove her wrong? Yeah prove her wrong, right now she thinks you are like all these other niggas out here that cheat and feel like she should automatically forgive you. I told her I was sorry. Okay Charli and she'll tell you the same thing when she have, the baby and doesn't invite you to the birth. She wouldn't do that. You think he said chuckling as we continued to work out.

After working out with Phil I went home to get a quick shower before going to the studio for a little bit. The summer Jam was a success but now we gotta get to work on our plans for the money that collected. Great her ass ain't here I said pulling up to the house not seeing her car in the drive way. I made sure I left the house before she could because she'd be quick to get up and leave me with the kids without a second thought. Since she wasn't there, I could finally get a shower in my shower instead of that cramped guest bathroom. I turned on the shower and grabbed my phone to turn on some music to help me relax while I showered. Mmm it felt so good to feel the water fall down on my head. Now its time for me to relax a little bit.