Slowly Freaking Out

16- Just Trust Me

“What!?” I exclaim down the phone a day after mine and Logan’s argument. “No, no, no, no,” I continue to say very quickly. 

“What’s wrong with that?” Landon chuckles, his beautiful laugh ringing through the speaker on my cell phone. 

“It’s just- I just-“ I stutter, nervousness overcoming me when I start to think about what I might have to go through if I can't talk my way out of this.

Landon just told me that his family has been adamant about meeting me for that last week or so, and since his older sister is now in town, he has one more person telling him that they must meet me. He claims that he has tried his hardest to put it off as long as he can- and I believe that he did try the best that he could- but he just can’t win anymore- which I understand, because if my family was nagging me about them meeting Landon, I would eventually give up sooner or later.

“There’s nothing to worry about, Mae,” Landon assures me, his soothing voice calming me down slightly. “They will love you- I promise.” 

“You don’t know that,” I reason, all the negative thoughts popping straight back into my head. “It could go all terribly wrong. I mean, what if they think I’m horrible- or they don’t want you to date me? Oh my gosh! What if they tell you to break up with me!?” I ramble, my anxiety now becoming more evident than before. 

“That won’t happen, just trust me,” He tells me, obviously trying to get me to stop freaking out. “Now, just take a few deep breaths and calm down.” 

I do as my lovely boyfriend tells me to do- inhaling deeply, then releasing the air with a big exhale. I repeat this motion two more times. Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale.

“Okay,” I sigh, racking a hand through my messy brown hair. “I think I’m good now.” 

“Good,” Landon says, “I’m glad.” 

“So, I guess we really have to do this, don’t we?” 

“Yeah,” Landon sighs. “We really do, but everything will go great. I’ll pick you up at 6 o’clock sharp, okay?” 

“Sure,” I nod my head, even though I know that he can’t see me- it’s kind of like a subconscious movement. “See you then.” 

I end the phone call there, pressing the red ‘end’ button on my phone. I drop the phone onto my bed and collapse down into my soft bed. My head starts to spin again, thinking about the endless possibilities of what could happen at this dinner tonight- it could go extremely well, or incredibly bad- there is no way to tell. 

I close my eyes to keep myself from freaking out once again. It takes me only a few seconds until I open my eyes again, and decide that I should start getting ready. 

Today I had nothing planned. I was just going to spend my day watching reruns of some shows on Netflix while spending the whole day in my pajamas- which is why I am still currently in my pajamas at 3:27 PM. 

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Around two and a half hours later, just a few minutes before the clock turns six o’clock, I am ready to go have dinner with Landon’s family. I look in the mirror in my bathroom, running my hands over the dress I am wearing, smoothing it down, making sure that there are no wrinkles. 

I am wearing a white dress that has some fancy looking black lace detailing along the bottom of the dress. Around my upper waist area- around my belly button- I have on a thin black belt that has a mini black bow in the center of it. 

For accessories I put on this rose gold bracelet that has a stud on each end of it, meaning that it doesn’t completely close, and on those studs there is some shimmer detailing, making it look a bit fancier. On one of my fingers, I have on a gold ring that has two cat ears peeking out. I am also wearing a simple watch- the watch has a black strap and then silver detailing around the clock area. To go with the black lace on my dress and the black strap on my watch, I have a on a pair of plain black chunky heels.