Slowly Freaking Out

27- He's My Only Shot

The day after I went to the water park with Miles is painfully boring. Miles' friends invited him to go paintballing and I'm terrified of paintball, so I didn't want to go. He said no at first because he wanted to spend the day with me but I don't want him to spend all of his time with me and to ditch his friends, especially since they're all going their separate ways after the summer too, so he shouldn't spend all of his time with me, even though I wish that that could happen because now I'm bored out of my mind.

And the sucky thing is that I don't have my own friends here. I know Miles and his friends and they're all out paintballing and I know Mae and her friends but that'd be weird considering we're not on speaking terms right now.

I'm done with the fighting though, I'm just letting it all go. I've forgiven Mae for all of the awful things that she said about me and Miles and I'm okay with being friends again but I can tell that she obviously hasn't forgiven me for dating Miles, and I don't think that she ever will to be honest, and I'm not going to keep groveling and apologizing because I've said sorry and now it's time to move on.

After lunch, I call my dad to see how things are going and we have a conversation for a while but after about an hour, we run out of things to talk about so I say goodbye to him and get dressed to go for a jog down the beach.

I get dressed in shorts and a sports bra and put my dark hair up in a ponytail before setting off down the shoreline but because it's so close to noon, it's really hot outside so my run isn't as long as they usually are because I usually go running in the morning or at night when it's cooler out.

I stop for ice cream a little farther down the beach to take a break and I sit in the sand to enjoy my ice cream and when I finish, I wade my feet in the waves. I don't want to start running right after eating the ice cream or I'll get a stomach ache so I wait about ten minutes and then start my jog to return to the house.

When I get back to the house, I see Mae and two of her friends, Cadence and Audrey, sitting on the couch in the living room watching TV so I offer them a friendly wave as I'm guzzling down a cold bottle of water from the fridge.

"Did you just go for a run?" Audrey wonders incredulously. "Dude, it's like a hundred degrees out."

"Yeah," I breathe, still trying to catch my breath a little bit. "I didn't go very far but I just needed something to do."

"Oh, yeah, all of the guys went to the paintball place today," Cadence says. "Kurt was really excited about that."

"Well, if you're bored, you can come watch TV with us, we're watching reruns of the X Factor and judging everybody," Audrey adds with a friendly smile.

"No," Mae says quickly. "Absolutely not."

"Come on, Mae, she doesn't know anybody else in town, what else is she supposed to do?" Cadence wonders, taking pity on me as well, which is really nice of her. "You two don't even have to talk to each other, it just must suck having to spend the whole day by yourself."

"Thanks you guys," I say quickly before Mae has a complete tantrum and like I just said, I don't want to fight with Mae any more than we already have. I still love her like a sister and I'm just tired of the fighting. "But it's fine. Mae's still being crabby."

"I'm not being crabby, I just don't want to hang out with you," She says in a snippy tone.

"Exactly my point," I say with a small laugh at how contradictory her statement just was. "But thanks again for the invite, you guys have a good day."

As I'm walking up the stairs and to my room, I can hear the girls downstairs. "It'd be really cool if you two fixed things," I hear Audrey saying.