Slowly Freaking Out

23- I Don't Care Anymore

Logan's POV

“Just let her go,” Miles puts a hand on my shoulder so that I don’t run down the stairs toward my best friend. “She needs time.”

I watch helplessly as Mae disappears out of the house, slamming the door behind her as she leaves. “It wasn’t supposed to happen like that,” I whisper.

“I know,” He assures me, wrapping me in his arms to try and comfort me as I start to panic. I thought that Mae was at that party tonight, I didn’t even know that she was home. But now, everything is crashing down, just like I knew that it would. I was going to tell her tomorrow about Miles and I, now that she’s made up with Landon and everything. But her finding out like this, just walking in on us making out, is ten times worse than me owning up to it and telling her face to face.

“What do I do?” I ask Miles, desperate for him to have the answer to this problem because I don’t. I have no idea what I have to do now to make things right with my best friend. I need him to tell me. I need to make things right.

“Just take a deep breath,” He says, his voice a lot calmer than mine and it almost pisses me off that he’s so calm right now, after Mae just walked in on us in a very unexplainable position. “And just let her calm down. When she’s ready to talk then just explain what happened.”

“Why aren’t you freaking out?” I ask him.

“Because it’s not my fight,” He shrugs but what I hear when he says that is ‘it’s not my problem’ because really, it isn’t his problem. Not really. Mae and Miles aren’t that close, so I’m sure he can date whoever he wants without Mae really caring. And even if she is mad at him right now, I doubt that he cares that much considering they’re siblings and they probably fight sometimes. But I’m Mae’s best friend, she cares about who I date and we never fight so having this over my head, it feels like it’s about to crush me. I need to talk to Mae.

“She’s going to hate me,” I whisper the numbing reality of the situation as tears start to itch behind my eyes, fighting their way down my cheeks even though I’m trying my best to bat them away.

“She’s not,” He hugs me close to him and I put my face in his chest, trying to do what he said- take a few deep breaths and think things through. “She’ll get over it.”

“Not this. This is so bad,” I wail into his chest. “I can’t believe that she found out like that. I was going to tell her.”

“I know,” He rubs one of his wide hands on my back in a soothing manner. “Everything will work out.”

“I need to talk to her,” I say, looking down the stairs at the front door that’s still visible and still closed, willing her to walk back through the door, but I know that she won’t come back for at least a little while. Even if she’s just sitting out on the front porch, she won’t come back inside until she really has to. Just like her fight with Landon, she just prefers to run away from things instead of addressing it. To just ignore it until the problem fades away on its own.

“Give her time,” Miles says again leading me back down the hallway and then back into my room. “Let’s just sit down for a while and calm down.”

I listen to him and we both sit down on my bed. He loops his arm around my waist and I rest my head on his shoulder. “What am I going to say to her?”

“The truth,” He explains, having an answer for everything, which I appreciate. If only he could talk to Mae for me and make all of this go away. “When she’s ready to listen, just tell her what’s happened.”

“She won’t ever be ready to listen,” I mumble hopelessly. “Her fight with Landon was much smaller than this one and even then, I had to practically force her to hear him out. You know how stubborn she can be.”