Ariana Imagines

#146: If I Were You, Beware

The few street lights and the lights enclosed by the walls of the one house were the only thing lighting up the block. It seems that no one is interrupting this party tonight. I bring the red cup to my lips and drink the cruel liquid, the possession it has over my senses are secret. I stand there half-listening to my group of friends. My eyes are drifting off to the other people hanging out outside, and at the front door. 

I hear that familiar loud ringing of laughter, and there she was. Her eyes are small, head titled back, teeth showcased, with her friends right beside her. My eyes are dead locked. She doesn't notice me, it seems no one has noticed me. So I have to become noticed.. 

But before I can do anything, she locks eyes with me and that smile is gone. She's hiding behind her friends and leading them to the back to the house and shortly after I follow them. 

I finally catch up and call out her name and she slowly turns around along with her friends who obviously already knew who I was. 

"Please, let's not talk right now." she says.

"It seems a perfect time. Now if you guys can-" 

"You're drunk Y/N. Not now please." 

I've been captured with the eyes of wolfs, and I seem to be the fucking bunny. I won't allow it. 

"Let's talk, I'm fine." I said with a tone. "Hey, she doesn't wanna talk just leave her alone." one of her friends jump in bringing his hand out in front of everyone. I look at his hand and he puts it down. I look back at Ari and she's got a worry there. So peachy she looks, her eyeshadow is dark and her eyes are different. I know she's also been drinking. 

"Come. We'll go inside." I say quieter and bring my hand out for her to grab. We look at each other in the eyes and I try to reach her, as she touches my hand and firmly takes grip of it, I reached her. Her friends all have the worst faces, some even shaking their heads. I lead our walking back inside to where mostly everyone is. I take her to one of the three bathrooms in the roomy house. I shoo away some of the others making out. 

I kiss the top of her forehead and pat down her hair to release the uneasiness I can tell she is feeling. "I need you back in my arms Ari." I mumble as my lips are inches away her forehead. Her head is getting more in my neck. I can feel her shaky breath. "I-I don't know anymore.." she whispers. 

I take her two shoulders to separate the space and I look into her brown orbs. "I'll do anything. Please." she shakes her head and turns around in a quickness.Her hair hits my chest.  She's got an angry face now as I look at her through the mirror. 

"You haven't even apologized." she says with a kiddy attitude that makes me chuckle. I twist my head and kiss her cheek, my chuckle seems to have marked an unwanted small smile on hers. "I'm sorry." I whisper in her ear than move her hair away from her neck and kiss her there. Then to her favorite place below her ear. My hands on the sides of her arms, I can feel her physically shake and I smile into her neck. Smelling the rosy fragrance. 

When I look up from kissing her shoulder, her eyes are lovingly looking into mine. Full of love and still that uneasiness, but a sudden passion. She turns around and finally kisses me on the lips. After the dragged out meeting of our lips she says,

"My friends are gonna kill me for this." 

"Fuck them." I kiss her again uncaringly, smashing them together then perfecting it slowly as we continue on. 

"Let's just leave." I say catching my breath, she pants heavily. "Are you kidding? I'm not leaving them." I kiss her one last time. 

Her eyes are still closed when I pull away completely, both my hands on my sides. 

I can see her lids tighten closed than she hisses. "Fine." she mumbles opening them up to me. 

-

We've ran down to the other block and we're smiling as we look at each other and catch our breath.

"I've missed you." I tell her and she blushes. "Tell me what's worrying you." I say reassuringly. I know and I've seen that something is obviously wrong. Secretly passing by her mood. 

"I just don't wanna go through something like that again." she says referring to what happened before our break. "I know.." I mumble and she continues. "It is so exhausting, I know it's not my fault like you say but I just wish you trusted me and let me love you." she goes on making my heart turn into a middle temperature. 

"I know." I say again. "Stop saying that.." she mumbles with a little fear. 

"That's all I can fucking say because I know I suck." 

She stops our walking and turns us into eachother and grabs my face looking up at me. "I don't want you to think that." I move my face, my lips in her palm. 

"I don't know what you want from me then." I leave a kiss in her warm palm. She backs away and brings her arms to her sides and I have wide eyes on her afraid she'll leave me again. "I want you to know what you want for yourself. For us." 

I roll my eyes with a smile, "Baby I love you. You know that." 

"Are you sure I do? All these arguments and trust make me worry." I let my fingers circle around her cheek and I'm looking helplessly at her face.

"I'm sorry, I'm gonna try to better myself and I can only do that with you here." she smiles at this, raises on her tippy toes and kisses me. "Okay."