Ariana Imagines

#117: All Caught Up? [I'm Back]

I could feel my phone buzz, my butt feeling the sudden vibration. I get it out and see the screen light up,

'Look up.'
I read from an unknown number. I look straight ahead of me and inbetween all the other bodies I find my ex-girlfriend. My body turns cold and I could feel my throat close up. It's been too little for me to get over her, seeing her makes my knees weak. So I'm deadly still and stuck to where I stand. So many questions that I knew I was too scared to ask her.

All I wanted to do was break down but she didn't, so I wouldn't. At least not in front of her. I swear as I look at her a second time she's closer than when I last saw her.

I look down at my phone, my fingers rapidly typing,
'What do you want?'
"Hey." I hear and my head slowly rises from my phone. Our eyes meet and I instantly feel my eyes get glossy, but I hold it back. "Leave me alone." I barely let out before I walk into the party even further.

"No,no,no.." I hear behind me before being grabbed and turned around by my arm. "You're not gonna ignore me." she says towering over me, my face looking up to see her. She was so good-looking, but it didn't hide how unloyal she was. Not to me.
"Please let me go."
"No." she answers quickly, my eyes and burning into hers and I know not to look away and show my weakness. "Leah? Why Leah? Did you always miss her? You were with her..Two weeks later.."

"All caught up?"she asks and it makes me instantly angry how she thinks this a joke. I try shaking out my arm but it doesn't work.

"I never wanted her back, not like I want you back right now. I can't tell you an excuse, theirs no point knowing you won't believe me. So I'll tell you something you will believe,"

I tried to get out of her grip, I didn't want to hear this...
She held on tighter.

"I love you. You know that and I would never go with anyone else. It suprises me how you don't know that. I've been just as upset, regretful. I really care about you, it's just myself I need to care about equally. I can't do that though baby." I listen carefully, tears releasing shamefully.

"I need you to help me. I can't do it alone." I shake my head and my body loosens. I give up on trying to fight.

"I can't help you, if you don't try."
"I'll try. Please." she begs, in her eyes I can see the pain. It burns through me, it feels like I'm naked in the winter. Being watched by those pair of eyes.

"All caught up." I chuckle with an underlining of sadness and exhaustion. Yet relief.