Miss You Already - SwanQueen

Part 2

~ Emma POV ~

"You promised me you'd eat some greens" Killian sternly scolds our stubborn 5 year old daughter who is going through a teenage phase I'm sure, she's definitely grown up rather quickly, but we expected that judging by me and Killian being her parents, we were so eager to just burst out into the life and be independent... but not too independent... there is still one person I will always need no matter what.My Regina.

"Just cheese and bread that's all" she crosses her arm in battle. He gives her that longing look, slowly creeping towards his catch, before attacking her rib cage with tickles while Henry too hangs up on his older sister, forcing a green bean inside her mouth.

But my eyes seem to fixed anywhere away from my family, because it kills me. Quite literally. They're all here, living a normal day of life like we used to, yet my life has completely flipped within a day. How am I ever going to tell them all that cancer cells are attacking my body violently and who knows the outcome. I just can't imagine not being in their life.

I must be zone out for a while, because when I notice myself come back to reality, I realise all eyes are seriously fixed on me with worry. My two children looking nervous. My husband trying to tap me, shake me, and call my name for attention, but my mind is somewhere else. I can already feel myself getting more and more lost. "Babe"

I blink a few times and look to my gorgeous children, by boy who is now so big, resembling his father, but Scarlet, she is all me. I cannot miss out in their lives, I need to be their mother for as long as they need me.

"Give mummy a kiss, and then get ready for bed please" Killian firmly suggests, encouraging my two children to pad their sorry feet towards me. I'm already a burden to this family, already killing every mood to the night, I need to fight for health, fight for laughter, and have the life we all deserve.

Scarlet sits on my knee while Henry crawls between Killian and I.

"What's wrong mommy?" Scarlet asks, grabbing my attention yet again. I simply place a longing kiss that lingers longer than any other upon her temple while my hand snakes along Henry's back.

"I'm fine, just tired that's all" I lie. I'm just not ready to admit to them what's may or may not be happening. Or maybe I just can't admit it to myself. I guess my reckless life has consequences, god officially hates me. "Off to bed you two, you have school tomorrow. I love you"

"Love you mommy" they both mumble.

While the kids stomp up to bed in a gloomy mood, I look to Killian, flashing him a some-what convincing smile, but it doesn't work with him.

"You haven't touched you're food..."

"I'm just not feeling well... ok" I lash out, who knows how much more of this I can take. "I'm going to bed"

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~ Regina POV ~

As I stand looking out the boat window with my hot cup of cocoa in my hand, I hear my boyfriend finally leave our bedroom and welcome the morning.

I guess he could smell the eggs I had started cooking and the freshly brewed coffee ready for him. What can I say? I'm truly wifey material.

"Hey, isn't it fertile day?" He grabs my attention, stomping his way towards my frame and snaking his nerdy hands around my waist. "Up for a quick spooge before work?"  He laughs connecting his lips with mine, making me all the more weak at the knees.

"Maybe"  I softly mumble into the kiss, so he takes that as a confirmation, lifts me up and sits me on the kitchen counter. "Oh... wait..." I stop, urging him to step back and wonder what my sudden outburst is about.

I jump off the counter to receive a little device that should help regulate my fertility, setting it on the side and opening it up.

"What's that?"  He laughs as I tap away at all the little displays and retrieve the equipment that will allow me to know whether or not we can have a baby. " a little laptop for our hamster" he jokes, we don't even own a hamster.

"It's my new fertility monitor" I confirm. "I pee on it first thing in the morning... and it tells me if I'm ovulating or not"

"Heaven forbid we actually have sex for the fun of it these days" and I guess he's right, but we're wasting our time, he wants a child so badly; but I can't give him that so easily, it's complicated. We've tried for so long and I'm tired of getting false hopes.

"Well what if we keep trying and trying and it never works?" I worriedly ask, I cannot feel like I'm unable to give him the one thing we both want. Especially because he could so easily walk out my life and have it with another woman. "Eventually you're going to go off and have babies with a 22-year-old"

"You mean... you're not twenty two" he gasps, making a joke out of all of this. "You lying cow" he chuckles pressing a tender kiss to my forehead while I work this monitor. "You're eggs are ready" he confirms, placing my fried egg with a side of toast on a plate in front of me, but that's when the beep from my monitor tells me otherwise.

"Apparently not" I huff.

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~ Emma POV ~

"Because of your support we've given over 260,000 people safe, clean water" a man proudly confirms through a microphone opening up the important night. "We're not going to stop here, we're going to do more. Help us build more wells tonight" he urges placing a bucket of donations of the front stage and already some members of the public are racing towards the bucket to place money.

"Hello I'm so happy to see you" I huff my exhaustion already, kissing Killian on the lips and my parents on the cheek, as I guide them to their table. "Do not get drunk and bid on anything we can't afford" I sternly warn my husband. We all know what he can be like.

"Ok? How about I get really drunk, but don't bid on anything?" He persuaded, and that is an offer I can accept.

"Deal" I nod kissing him quickly and that's when my eyes meet Regina. She runs to me and hugs me tightly. "Hey I missed you"

"It's only been like two days, but I missed you too" she hugs me tight kissing my cheek and then Killian's, but that's never been a problem to me, they've always been close but that's because we're close. However I feel as though Robin doesn't feel the same, I get the impression he hates how close Regina and I are.  She takes a seat beside her husband and invites her mother along too. The more support the better.

"Remember I am working tonight, so please don't embarrass me"  I stretch out, I would be totally humiliated. I'm a PR executive if you were wondering. They all nod in confirmation but this time a believe them, they'd never embarrass me and risk my job.

"By the way, you look stunning" Regina winks, she clearly sees my nerves as I constantly adjust my outfit and hair.

"Not enough boobs out according to my mother" I roll my eyes and she does too. We've known since youthful ages my mother was 'a right old tart' and she didn't care either, she knew it. My dear mother Miranda. I now know where I get it from.

"She's the expert" Regina chuckles.

I appear to be have squat down between my family and friends for far too long now, and my work colleagues are eyeing my to make sure I'm doing my job properly, and obviously that makes me all the more nervous.

"Oh god... okay I have to get back to work and make all these rich bitches flash their cash" and at that moment I realise what I just said.

"Emma - err"

"Actually I want you to all react as though I said something humanitarian yet hilarious" I persuade, and obviously my amazing family and friends oblige and laugh at absolutely nothing, so I get back to works where it keeps my mind busy from everything that's wrong in my life right now. It's a distraction.