Miss You Already - SwanQueen

Part 5

The girls each had their highs and lows, who am I kidding? They had very deep lows. Telling Killian and Emma's parents was difficult and nothing has been the same ever since. Every time someone would look at Emma they would have that longing look in their eyes, the tilted head, the guilt of feeling sorry for her, but that's not what Emma wanted. Sure she needed to find a way to tell her children but Killian vowed to stand by her and battle this together, and that involves telling the children when the time is right, however in the meantime... there is only one thing Emma can do.
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~ Regina POV ~

"You have to think positively" I encourage, sitting beside my best friend while we fight this together. Emma and I have taught so many battles, and let me tell you, nobody beats Emma. She is fierce and headstrong, so I have faith. Emma can beat cancer.

We are currently in hospital, on the cancer ward making sure she is preparing for her chemotherapy, this is such a hard stage but we need to be strong, somewhat humorous because I believe humour is the one technique to feel as though everything is okay, even if it's not.

"Oh god if I die..."I roll my eyes and instantly stop her, she should not and will not be thinking like this. She is not leaving us... that's for sure.

"If you say that again..." I scold giving her my daggering eyes, challenging her in some way but stopping mid-sentence because truthfully I can threaten her when cancer is already doing the job.

"Well..."

"Don't say it" I growl. "It's all going to be okay" I confirm with a confident nod. Because honestly, I believe it will be. Nothing can beat Emma and I know that. She will win, she will come out on top; she just needs all this treatment. She suddenly bursts into a fit of laughter causing my eyes to curiously scan the room at all the sick patients also preparing for chemotherapy and we must be the most loudest people in here. "I can't believe we're laughing about this" I guiltily cover my mouth to stop myself and quiet the two of us.

But suddenly, far too quickly the mood shifts. Emma becomes worried, hurt, emotional all over again, and I'm not saying she's not entitled to feel this way, because she is. She's doing far better than I would be in this moment of time.

"I don't want them to have to go through it" she slowly lets out and instantly I know she's on about her children. She doesn't want them worrying or having to see her go through this time.

"They won't have to" I sweep away the golden locks falling around her face to hide her pout. But she doesn't need to hide it from me. I place a kiss to her temple. "They're not going to"

"They're going to watch me go through it, and have all sorts of shit to deal with when they're older" she finally lets her feelings flow, along with a single tear flowing from her eye down her beautiful pale skin.

We need to find a way to tell them that they'd understand, maybe put on a slide show on the TV and slowly explain in a fun way, rather than a life threatening dangerous way.

"We're going to make it extra wonderful for them" I vow, already planning in my head ways to tell Scarlet and Henry. "We'll look after them so much" I take her hand in mine, giving her my support through all of this. I will never leave her side. "You've made them into such wonderful kids"

And soon enough the time came to tell the children, and sure they took it well, but that was because of the way Emma had told them.
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~ Emma POV ~

"The lovely nurse puts chemotherapy into the IV drip." I start off, pointing to the cartoon display I had made on the TV.

"And the medicine is like an army of soldiers and they march into mommy's body" I inform, with the marching action that my babies soon follow. "Left, right, left, right" we all chant, stomping our feet and swaying our arms.

"Now, the chemo soldiers, they shoot the bad cancer out" I make a gun sign with my fingers, as the Tv displays the soldiers to be shooting away the cancer cells.

"Pow pow" Henry makes the noise of a gun and seems to be taking this well. "I want chemotherapy" he grins with joy, but if only it was as fun as I seem to be making it sound.

"The soldiers are a bit rubbish, so they also shoot parts of mommy's body that isn't poorly" I shrug with a pout, instantly making my babies smiles drop.

"Oh!"

"And just to be very very safe, the soldiers may zap out all of mommy big hair" I confirm. "But all of this is to make sure mommy gets better"

"Yay" my babies clap. I just hope it all goes according to plan, and comes across this simple. I hope I can fight all of these like the little chemo soldiers and find a way to make me better.

"And that my gorgeous family, is chemotherapy" I finish my slide and look to my children who are clapping.

"Very good mommy" Killian adds on, tugging his kids closer which confirms everything to me. I need my family and I need fight this battle. They're not getting rid of me that easily.