As Long As I Have You // A. Ghale

Can You Keep A Secret?

One word. Two syllables. A heart beat. Pregnant.

I hung up on the doctor in shock. What? What would I do with a baby? How is Ajay going to react to this news? He had told me he didn't want kids right now, at the state that Kyrat is in. I was shaking, and my palms were sweating, and I was panting. I was trying to calm myself down but, I was lost. I hadn't been this lost ever.

"Ajay, you should come home." I call Ajay, and I needed someone to talk to. I didn't know what to do. I had no idea what this meant, what I can and can't do. I just don't know.

"What? Is everything okay? I'll be there as soon as I can." He says, sounding panicked and clearly concerned. I didn't know where he was exactly, but it probably wasn't very close.

"No, don't rush. It's not immediate...yet." I say, trying to sound like I hadn't just had a midlife crisis. But, some things are hard to hide. This was one of those things.

"Don't move, I'm coming." I was pacing around the homestead, chewing my fingernails down to nothing. I was so in my head, I didn't notice when Ajay walked in the door.

"Hey, hey. I'm here, what's going on?" Ajay says, running towards me. He had dropped everything to get to me. I felt bad, but this was important. It was a human person, growing inside of my body.

"I don't know how to say this, I-I'm scared." I say, shaking and trembling underneath him. He noticed, and tried to calm me down.

"Whatever it is, I will be right by your side the entire time." Ajay tells me, comforting me in the best way.

"I'm pregnant." The room went silent. Dead silent. Ajay froze, and didn't move muscle for a minute. I walked closer to him, and he hugs me. I was surprised, he. just held onto me for a moment. It was like time had stopped.

"So, you're not mad?" I ask, being. very quiet about it. I just looked at the floor. As if there was something remotely interesting there.

"Mad? Of course not! This is a miracle, D. It may not be the best timing, but it's a gift." Ajay tells me, and crouches down to kiss my belly. His hands manage to cover almost all of my torso.