He Fell For The Nerd

Chapter 14

"My best dreams and worst
Nightmares have the same people in them."
-Philippos
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I woke up with a jolt. It had been a long time since I had had these dreams, well I should probably categorise them under nightmares. I know what caused these and I was afraid that it would.

Last evening when I had come home from school, Lee was already in the house, I hadn't realized that first since the house was eerie quiet, Jules was taking a nap which she's usually taking when I'm at home, so I thought that Lee hadn't come home yet. But my conclusion soon turned wrong when I heard Lee' shouting, there was no other voice so I observed that Lee is on the phone.

I quickly moved my legs in the direction of the shouting and soon came up in front of Lee's room. Here, the words spoken were more clear. So deciding that whoever Lee was on call with had him in a bad mood and as I was a sweet sister, I stuck my ear to the door in hopes of listening in on the conversation. But nothing prepared me for the guilt that would run through me after.

"No dad, no, that's just not fair." Lee said exasperated.

I froze there. No, dad can't be calling after months of not interacting with either of us. Years since he had done so properly. But I knew, I knew why he wasn't calling, not talking to me, the same reason he is so busy now that he can't ever pay us a visit. Or he pretends to be.

"I don't want to talk to you right now. Cam must be coming back from school, I don't want to see her sad" Lewis said, defeated.

My dad said something which riled up Lee even more.

"Shut up, you can't say that," he spat angrily and cut the call.

I had quickly moved away from the door and went to my room, all the memories rushing back. I had cried all night after Lee had come to my room to check up on me. I couldn't stop. I couldn't. He didn't know that I knew that dad called and I didn't want to tell him, it would upset him.

Now presently, I hauled myself up from my bed and went to my bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. Tear stains graced my face,my eyes were dull, lifeless, dark circles had started forming again, my hair a mess and me myself a mess. I shook my head. It had all come back yesterday night. I had tried to avoid them for so long, successfully even. I had no dark circles, my eyes were almost shining before yesterday I had managed to pick myself up but it took only one reminder for me to crumble again.

I washed my face and put some concealer below my eyes, I had learned to do that. If you show people you're okay they believe you're okay. I don't put any more makeup. I went into my walk in closet and wore the first thing my hand grabbed which were and oversized black shirt and chequered grey sweatpants. I put these on along with my glasses and went down stairs to greet Jules and my sweet sweet twin. It was 11 past something so I assume he would be up.

I walk downstairs and the delicious aroma of pancakes hit me. Ah Jules, my dear dear Jules. I quietly went into the direction of the kitchen and hugged Jules from behind, she laughed, a sweet sound and turned her head to kiss my cheek. I grinned, she saw my face and turned, leaving the pancakes.

She held my shoulders and looked into my eyes carefully. I was screwed. How did she know something was wrong?

"What happened, darling?" she asked concerned now holding my cheek in her hand.

I leaned into her soft touch and shook my head, tears again springing up in my eyes.

She wrapped he arms around me into her loving embrace.