A Wifes Cry of Intimate Pain

Chapter 7

Chapter 7

    Jelene,s POV

       Di man lang kami nakapapicture kaya nagpa edit na lang ako. I just want a remembrance, a remembrance that will remind me that one day I got married. That one day I became the bride of the man I love the most.

        My husband is nowhere to be found again, I'm sure that as of now he's happily enjoying the presence of his beloved France. Fact hurts but thats the reality, I must accept the fact that my husband doesn't love me back.

         Maybe some facts hurts, but we can't deny the fact that  facts open your eyes to reality. And reality hurts, thats the most common sentence I've ever heard. Reality also bring happiness but not all times.

          Life is full of passion, and with those passion we learn a lot of things.

          In order to kill the boredom building up with me, I decided to write a letter for Ace. I can't tell him directly what I want to tell him but with this letter I can wrote all I wanted to.

           I get a pen and a scented paper. I want to make it special although I will never give it to him but the fact that I'm writting this letter for him makes it special.

            Yes he hurt me a lot of times but that doesn't mean that I dont love him anymore, para san naman ang pagmamahal ko kung sa pagpapasakit nya pa lang mawawala agad.

           Kapag napagod na ako dahil sa pagpapasakit niya magpapahinga na lang ako tapos kapag okay na ako lalaban ulit ako. I love him pero di yun sapat para akuin ko sya, nakuntento nga ako sa pagmamahal ko sa kanya sa malayo ngayon pa ako mangaagaw of course not. I'm doing this for my child, I want him/her to experience the love of a father.

           I don't want him/her to grow up na uhaw sa pagmamahal ng isang ama, kahit ikahiya nya ako okay lang basta wag ang anak naming dalawa.

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Dear Ace,

             I'll always remember the day I first met you. I immediately fall for you, yung ngiti mong nakakaakit, yung mga mata mong kasing ganda ng bituwin sa langit. Alam mo bang mula nung makilala kita pinangarap kong pakasalan ka? Syempre hindi mo alam haha. At dumating nga ang araw, ikinasal tayo pero di dahil gusto mo kundi dahil kailangan.

            I know you hate me to the stars and back but I love you so much that I'm willing to suffer. Someday you will understand why I'm doing this, I want to tell you but your mind is close to listen to my explainations. Ace gusto ko lang namang mabigyan ng magandang buhay ang anak natin yeah NATIN pwede kong tawagin syang anak natin dahil wala ka naman at hindi mo mababasa to. At isa pa hindi mo rin ako maiintindihan hindi kasi ikaw ang nasa kalagayan ko. Ace buksan mo lang ang isipan mo kahit wag na ang puso mo alam ko naman kasing may laman na yan at si France yun. Ace kahit tanggapin mo lang ang anak natin ayos na marunong naman kasi akong makuntento. Mahal man kita pero marunong naman akong lumugar. Ang sakit nga lang isipin na ikaw mismo nagpapaalala sakin na hindi mo ako mahal, pero okay lang yun naman talaga ang totoo eh masakit nga lang. Alam mo bang gusto kong aku in ka pero alam ko namang wala akong karaptan asawa mo ako oo pero di naman ako ang nag mamay ari ng puso mo. Pero di ako nawawalan ng pag asa na balang araw matatangap mo rin ako.

                                                            Always loving you,

                                                                 Jelene Anya-Tollentino
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