A Wifes Cry of Intimate Pain

Chapter 13

CHAPTER 13

       Jelene's POV

    "Wag ka ngang mag inarte diyan kung hindi lang dahil kay Anne ay hinding hindi talaga kita pasasamahin sa-----"

"Hindi ako sasama." I cut him off "Sabihin mo na lang kay Anne na hindi ako makakapunta ikaw na ang bahalang magrason."

"Bakit ka ba nag iinarte ha?" he shouted and I almost jump in surprise.

"Ace alam nating pareho na ayaw mo akong pumunta dun, I dont want to ruin your day Ace lalo nat nandun ang pamilya mo. Isa pa we dont need to pretend that were good in front of them kasi alam kong alam nila kung ano ang sitwasyon natin."

"There expecting our marriage to work." sagot neto na nagpagulat sakin.

"Then tell them it can't, tell them you love somebody else and thats definitely not me. Spoil them Ace para hindi na sila mag expect pa." I said, gustuhin ko mang sumaya dahil alam kong boto ang mga magulang niya sakin pero hindi ko magawa. I need to accept the fact that were not going to work, that I need to let him go any time soon.

"I thought you want us to work?" naguguluhan na ako sa kanya, I mean sa pinagsasabi niya.

"But we both know we can't. Ikaw mismo ang nagsabing hindi tayo pwede dahil may kayo ni france at mahal niyo ang isat isa. Ace wag mo na akong paasahin pa."

"You said youll fight until marealize ko na may halaga ka sakin."

"Binabawi ko na yun. Ace I will still fight but for the sake of my child but when I get tired I will let you go and left."

"Totoo ngang promises are made to be broken."

"Yeah, promises are made to be broken."

This is the first time we talk calmly as if we finally agreed with one thing.

"You'll come with me, thats a command." and then he turned his back.

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Kasalukuyan kami ngayong nag vivideoke ng mga kamag anak ni Ace. Nakasama talaga ako sa family reunion nila.

Flashback

"You'll come with me, thats a command." and then he turned his back.

"What if I wont." I stop him

"Then I'll pack your things and drag them with you to my car."

"Okay fine I'll come." I give up he'll surely hurt me when he did that.

End of flashback

"Ikaw naman Jel." sabi ng pinsan ni Ace sakin na si ate Shine saby ngiti nginitian ko na lang siya pabalik. Ewan ko ba I dont feel her, feeling ko kasi may tinatago ito at kung ano man yun kailangan kung mag ingat kanina ko pa kasi ramdam ang matatalim nitong titig sakin.

The song started to play I choose 'Too good at goodbyes by Sam Smith." feel ko kasi ang kanta eh.

'You must think that I'm stupid
You must think that I'm a fool
You must think that I'm new to this
But I have seen this all before.'

'I'm never gonna let you close to me
Even when you mean the most to me
Cause everytime I open up it hurts
So I'm never gonna get to close to you
Even when I mean the most to you
In case you go and leave me in the dirt.'

Darating ang araw na mapapagod din ako at ako na mismo ang lalayo kahit gaano pa siya ka importante sakin dahil habang malapit ako sakanya mas lalo lang akong masasaktan.

'But every time you hurt me
the less that I cry
And everytime you leave me
the quicker these tears dry
And everytime you walk out
the less I love you
Baby, we dont stand a chance
its sad but its true.'

Yeah this past few days napapansin kong hindi na ako gaanong umiiyak, although masakit pa rin mahal ko siya eh pero parang unti unti nang nababawasan ang pagmamahal ko.

'I'm way too good at good byes
I'm way too good at good byes.'

I cant lie to my self at all I'm close to giving up pero hanggat kaya ko pa lalaban pa ako ayoko kasing pag dating ng panahon ay may pagsisisihan ako.