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C19 - Explanations Behind the Now

Everything changes.
The panta rei. The constant flux. It is what Heraclitus said. 

        Time flies so fast and you'd realize, everything has changed. You'd barely even remember the things happened in the past. All you know is that you are just a wandering child travelling into obscurity of another world, high school life. You know that you are about to enter the gates of another living hell. You know that the simulations and approach here are different from earlier years, which is more frightening than your strict teachers in your elementary days or even the time-pressuring promptness of passing requirements. You know that they will teach you the advanced techniques of life.. You know that they will train you and develop your skills in preparation to the real deal of it all, the college life. All you remember is that yesterday was your first day in first year.. and then you wake up living in a third year life. 

        It is fast which makes you eager to finish every detail but infuriated in the end as the months won't suffice. You'd know why as soon as you'll be in your senior year. I may not be a senior right now but I know exactly how it feels to make every last bit precious. Just because you're not a senior, doesn't mean you're not going to feel the same. It is not applicable only to the graduating, rather being more intensified. There are many scenarios that could make you do the same but the real question behind this is to how make the days last longer than the usual? 

        By making every moment precious. Making it legendary with people around you. Seize the day. Do what you want to do while it's still here. Be at your best. Never give up because the end is coming. You just have to keeping pushing to your limits, and maybe in you'd even discover more of yourself. Be with the people you love the most. Make their day happy as they will make yours too. If a problem would come to take your happiness, never be hopeless for there will always be a way to solve any problem. If you know the basics or the equations that could simplify the whole situation , then you could answer it. For as long as you are okay with your loved ones, either family or friends (maybe even a boyfriend, if you have one), and with your life (no worries), then that's what makes every moment precious and last a lifetime. 

and the question I answered was "With the end of your high school life is fast approaching (even though you're a junior), there are two years left before you'd go to a university and experience college life, how are you going to spend the days left? 

And I just wish, the change never happened between me and Kuya George. I don't know how to approach him anymore despite these events that happened last week... or should I say, last year. 

"Oy, nagsusulat ka nanaman ah. Diary ng Panget." sabi ni Neal.
"Panira ka talaga ng moment noh, Neal." sabi ko sa kanya..

Nasa canteen kami.. wala pa sina Colin, Landon at Lily dahil tinatapos nila yung essay para sa isang klase namin... marami kasing options na pipiliin para sagutin.. either yung sinabi ko kanina or yung How would the past help the present?... Tungkol kasi sa time ang aming topic sa klase na yun.. 

"So di mo tinatanggi... SO PANGET KA?" banat ni Neal.
"Maganda tayo sa mata ng Panginoon, ewan ko lang sa paningin ng iba."
"Sa akin, hindi."
"E di rerespetuhin ko yun. Ang tanong ko lang naman ay maganda ba para sayo si Lily?"
"Yun? Sus. Yung maliit na yun.. Pwede na rin.. pero hindi.."
"Bakit? Ano bang wala kay Lily? Meron ba talagang something sa inyo?"
"Ayoko lang s'ya masaktan."

Biglang pumasok sa eksena sina Hector at Alex. Sumama sa table namin, tas sinabi ni Hector na, "Oy Kat, grabe ka na talaga. Wag mo naman saktan si Lily."
"Hala, grabe kayo. Nakausap ko lang s'ya ng ganito ay... ngayon lang. Lol." sabi ko. 
"At tsaka, si Kat? Hayaan mong mag-agawan sila ni Landon sa bebe nila." sabi ni Neal. 
"Grabe ka.. Wag kang ganyan kay Ms. Luis." banat ni Alex
"Woy, wag mo nga mabanggit-banggitin yan." sabi ko. 
"Anong Ms. Luis? May bago nanaman ba yan?" tanong ni Neal
"Di ba nga yung cosplayer?!? Last year ko sinabi sayo ah." sabi ni Alex.