Hiccstrid/HTTYD one shots

I cannot name chapters I AM SO SORRY

Word count: 410

⚠️TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️
-Depression
-Bulling

Just shut up

You really need to stop talking

Hiccup you know no one actually cares?

Shut up

My god your fucking annoying

Can you be quiet for just one second

The phrases swirl around my in head. I sit at the edge of my bed, twirling my hair with my fingers. Tugging slightly at the auburn strands.

The years of teasing rolling around in my brain, mixing together a perfect soundtrack for my depression. The jeering and poking at my everything. My habit of rambling about something I wanted to talk about to shove the thoughts out of my head. Cramming it with movies and books and random facts. Leaving no room for demons to reside in my brain. They find places to fit. Slithering through the cracks like thin snakes, winding themselves around memories and pulling me back to the past. They link together, twirling, swirling and calling me to the dark abyss that I can't fill with knowledge.

Two arms wrap around my torso. Warmth flooding into my cool skin. I move my hands from my hair to place them softly on her hands.

A small kiss is placed just behind my ear as the bed squeaks and her chest is flushed against my back.

"What's up." She whispers, breath blow my hair tickling my ears. Sadly it reaches my nose and it scrunches up slightly.

"Nothing, just need a drink." I say.

The old habits die hard. I talked to much, making me want to not talk. Making my insecurities bite when I spoke out of turn. Said something a little to mean, mentioned a show I watched. Trying to bottle up every emotion.

"I know something is up. Come on tell me. We can work it out."

I try to stubbornly repeat that word in my mind. We, we, we! But it never sticks. To my break it's me and nothing else. No one has ever wanted to be a we.

"Hiccup." It's spoken so softly I almost don't hear it. Hands squeeze gently.

"Just," I breathe out a long sigh. "Everything."

It's short and offers no way of fixing it but that's the best I can fathom at the moment.

"Well that's nothing we haven't dealt with before. And we can do it again."

I let out a weak smile.

"Come on back to bed. Let's try and shut your mind up."

"I doubt it's going to work." I say.

"We can always try."

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