Under the Same Sky

Waves

Summer was beating down on us now, and it became more and more exhausting to go to work everyday. The heat taunted us while beaming through the tall windows of the shop. I was jealous of the tourists who could show up in just a bikini top and shorts. I, on the other hand, was stuck in the black work uniform, my hair sticking to this ridiculous hat. 

It had been a month since Jake and I made our agreement. He picked me up from work everyday and we went on some type of romantic adventure. We had been stargazing, hiking, cliff top picnics, even a weekend getaway to some cabin his family owned. It was great, but I couldn't help but feel the sadness creep in. There was such a short time left for us--just for the summer he had said. It made sense. There were girls throwing themselves at him all around the world, why would he want someone like me? I'm lucky I even got him for this little bit of time. Insecurity washed over me thinking about how many other girls he had made this agreement with. I got my phone out since the shop was slow, and texted Jake.

'hey hun, rain check for tonight? not feeling so hot :-/" 

Jake: 'Of course, love. You alright? Is it this heat?'

'I'm not sure, just not feeling up to anything tonight, need some rest. Work is crazy.'

'Anything you need darling?'

My heart melted every time he called me darling. He knew I had a soft spot for the pet name. 

'No, I'm all good angel :-)' I respond back, tucking my phone away as my boss came out from the office to check on us. 

"You girls doing alright?" she asked. 

"Yeah, it's just too damn hot." I said, taking off my hat and fanning myself with it

"Oh yeah it's ridiculous. I'm thinking about eating all this ice cream myself just to stay cool." she laughs

"Honestly" I agree

"I am going to close shop up early because I need to check the books and whatnot, so you can head home in like 20 mins." 

I practically jumped up and hugged her.

"you are a blessing" I said

She laughed and walked back to the office. 

I wiped down counters and rung up a few more customers. 20 minutes flew and I was out the door. I texted Jenny, who was off that day, to see if she wanted to do something. 

'Sorry babes, I'm with Joshy tonite. Didn't u and Jake have plans?'

'Yeah, but I'm not feeling up to it tonight :-/'

'You okay? I'll come over if u need'

'Yeah, just thinking & no way am I cutting into time with Josh. Have fun babe!'

I throw my phone in the passenger seat and decide to turn on some tunes to ease my mind. I turn on Danny's Song by Loggins & Messina and roll the windows down. 

"Even though we aint got money, I'm so in love with you honey and everything will bring a chain of love" I sing along with the chorus, tears making their way down my cheeks. The warm summer air felt great on my face and I wish I could just drive away from this place. 

I pull into my driveway and go straight to my room and plop on my bed. 

The tears just pour out and the sobs become uncontrollable. I reach up to get a tissue and see a figure in my doorway. 

Jake. 

I wipe my tears and sit up. 

"Hey babe" I say, pretending as if I wasn't crying. 

"What's wrong, Y/N?" he says, sadness caking his face

"Nothing" I say, smiling big

"Tell me what's wrong." 

"Jake, I swear its nothing. You don't have to care about me, this is a summer fling. We should treat it that way."

He looked genuinely hurt. "Y/N, don't do that to me. Don't make it seem like I don't care. I really do care and I want the best for you." 

"I know, I know. I'm sorry. I just can't stop thinking." 

"About what?"

I hesitated a moment. "About us. About how there may have been other girls you had made this agreement with in the past. About how this means a lot more to me than it should and how I'm going to hate to see you go." I spilled, choking on my sobs.

He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me into him. He combed his fingers through my hair, shushing me. "You're the first and only girl I've made this agreement with, but if you're uncomfortable with it, we can end it now. We can just be friends."

"Jake, that's not what I want."

"What do you want then, Y/N?" 

"I-I don't know. Nobody's ever asked me that before." 

"Well, it is all up to you. Like I said, I care about you. I don't want to be the cause of your pain. Think on it and let me know in the morning." 

He kissed my head, and tucked me into bed before leaving. I didn't want him to leave. I wanted him to stay there. I wanted him to hold me, cuddle me, kiss me. 

I couldn't sleep, I just cried the entire night. 

How do you tell someone you just met that you want to grow a garden with them? 

How do you tell someone you just met that you want to spend the rest of your sunrises and sunsets together?

Especially when they're leaving. 

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Sorry this chapter is meh, I have big plans for later on!