jack gilinsky imagines

i was made for loving you

it hurts having to act like we're still a couple to please the public. especially when we weren't even a couple to begin with.

okay scratch that. it's just too complicated to get into.

me and jack gilinsky had been a couple for one year and seven months but, because of our dumb mouths, we ended on a bad note. we avoided each other for as long as we could until his manager called both of us.

"we need you two to act like a couple for a month." i still remember his words. something about the "public loving us". damn.

and, to my dismay, i had said yes. and so had he. so we did it. at the two week mark, everything felt normal. it felt like we were actually a couple. he'd kiss me when no one was around, he'd hold my hand and wrap his arms around my body when we'd sleep together. it felt like i was finally getting him back.

until that day. when i told him to go home so he can get changed up so we can go talk to his manager about us actually becoming a thing. when he hadn't come back after a half hour, i decided to drop by his house to see what was going on. i had even picked up some chocolate dipped strawberries. his favorite.

i wish with all of my heart i hadn't knocked on that door. cause as soon as i did, i saw him there. shirtless with his hair all messed up. and his ex was there too.

i tried playing it off like it didn't hurt. i handed him the box and told him that we didn't really need to go see his manager anymore.

i walked away, furiously wiping my tears away, yelling at myself mentally for being such a dumbass for believing that he'd actually wanna date me again.

"y/n" i heard him yell. i stopped.

"uhm yeah what's up?" i say, really trying to act like i didn't wanna crawl up in a hole and die.

"are you-is everything okay?" he asks.

"yeah, i mean. you tell me. if you came to your supposed boyfriends house and see him with his ex with absolutely no shirt on, wouldn't you feel like you're on top of the world?"

fuck. i didn't mean to say that.

"y/n listen-"

"i really don't want to"

"what you saw in there-"

"i said-" i yell "- that i really don't want to listen. i'm tired of listening jack. i've been listening to everyone for so long. too fucking long. i listened to you during our first fight when you said that i was a dumbass for believing you'd ever love anyone else other than me. i listened to you when you gave me my promise ring saying you'd never hurt me. absolute bullshit. i listened to our parents when they said that i was the single best thing to come into your life. i listened to your during our last fight, when you said that your ex was a better fuck. hell, i even listened to your fucking manager when he said he wanted us to pull this stupid relationship stunt. and i can't fucking believe i listened to you when you said you never stopped loving me."

jack looks stunned and doesn't know what to say.

"so now, you're gonna listen to me. i'm done with this bullshit. and to fucking think that i'm still so in love with you. that i'd drop everything just to make you happy. there's still a couple of weeks until we're free of this contract. after that, you don't need to see me and i sure as hell won't be keeping up with you."

"y/n-"

"jack i can't keep up with this anymore. "

and with that, i left.