jack gilinsky imagines

promise me 2.0

dear jack gilinsky,
if you're reading this, i hope by now you've eaten and showered and brushed your teeth. i hope you're sitting down right now cause i know how quickly you fall when you're shocked. although, this may not come as a shock to you.

by the time you're gonna be reading this, i've left. and you might be mad, sad, confused, or even happy. but i just wanted to explain why.

jack, for as long as i can remember, i've never felt worth it. i've never felt like someone's top priority, or someone's light at the end of the tunnel. and for so long, i've been yearning for that feeling. a sense of validation. a sense of being loved.

when i met you, i felt all of that and more. when we started dating, i couldn't name a happier person than me. you've treated me like a queen, someone who you just can't live without. being with you had taught me how to be patient and confident and how to love wholeheartedly.

but even after gaining, i've still lost in the end. i've lost you due to what i'm about to say next.

i left because i don't deserve this. i don't
deserve this life where you spend all day spoiling me and loving me with everything you have. you deserve better jack. everyone can see that. everyone's told me that.

you deserve someone pretty, someone smart, someone funny. you deserve to be loved with no regret, no fights, no hesitation.

and i could never be the one to give you that.

i'm not sure where i'm gonna go. but i know that if i stay with you any longer, I'll be holding you back from meeting your dream girl.

and i know what you'll say. that i am your dream girl. but jack, we both know i'm not.

i didn't have the courage to tell you this face to face and i'm sorry. i know how you prefer confrontation instead of measly notes or texts.

i'm gonna miss you jack. i'm gonna miss your morning breath and afternoon kisses.
your large ass arms hugging me when i'm cold.

or wearing your hoodies that barely cover my ass but always has you saying "how about we leave this movie and do something else?"

and oh god, i'm gonna miss your smile. please, promise me to keep smiling that smile no matter what.

maybe we will meet again, finnegan. maybe not in this life, but we will be together.

please promise me that you'll never change
promise me you'll never stop loving the way you do
promise me you'll be fine
promise me that you'll always continue looking for the good in people
promise me you'll never revert to doing bad
and please promise me you'll never forget me
even if i've hurt you immensely, promise me you'll always remember the good in our relationship.

i love you jack finnegan gilinsky.
i always have and i always will.

yours truly,
y/f/n

idk what this is but i was just inspired to write a letter so amsjzjz