My Personal Virus (A BEN Drowned x Reader fanfic)

The Blind Truth

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Rain poured unexpectedly but in a peaceful way, I sat feeling lifeless on my seat staring at her coffin. Days have passed until things escalated quickly, well I expected it to since I don't know what will happen if things lasted long. It's finally done and gone, my search for justice is done while she's confirmed to be gone. I was angry to think she would die because of me, though I felt sad about it as well. My life slowly crumbled down all because of that bastard, he decided to not show himself towards me without a reason while I just thanked God for that.

"[Name] it's your turn"

Kristel walked towards me while I sighed then stood, there I walked in front of a small crowd of people. Clearing my throat I have decided to just say a short message, I didn't want to waste people's time with me rambling how guilty I felt.

"I just wanted to keep things short, I don't know how long could I handle myself. Carolyn was my childhood friend, we went through all kinds of phases and problems. I'm incredibly thankful to have a person like her, a joker and a person who just cares about you 24/7. I was so blind to not realize that she wanted to remove herself from existence, but soon I realized it wasn't my fault..."

It's his fault, he's the cause of this tragedy. He's the reason why she killed herself.

Of course, I couldn't tell the people watching me that all of this happened thanks to that fucker that looked exactly like a video game character, I know how reality works so I just simply played by its rules.

"But some certain things don't last forever, and I accept that completely. I just hope she's in...a better place..."

I finished as I walked back to my seat. When it's time to lower the casket, we were given the moment to look at her dead face once more. It just doesn't feel right, the way I stared at her face just doesn't seem like the one I did back when I discovered her in her room right before she died. It felt silly for me to think she was hinting something, she's dead and she can't hint something with her pale face. Kristel stood right next to me, I expected to see her in tears but she was looking intently at Carolyn's corpse with furrowed eyebrows.

"Hey...is there something wrong?"

"Do you see that?"

"See what?"

"Look at her collar bone"

I did and it surprised me to see a small visible scar that looked like a symbol, squinting a lean closer to the glass to inspect it. It was a circle scar with an 'X' written in the middle, confused I looked back at Kristel where we stared at each other for a moment.

"Do you know what that symbol means?"

"I don't know, I think we should figure it out later after the funeral"

"Good idea..."

We whispered at each other before turning away back to our seats. Finally, the casket was lowered into the ground, I watched blankly not knowing how to feel in this situation. The symbol I saw was all I could think of, it could be something important and if so I must find out the meaning behind it. An hour or two have passed, everything was done and sealed, people were chatting some are going home already. I was stuck with Kristel as we stood together in silence, I know that for the past few days we haven't been doing well but now I think we needed to, for Carolyn's sake.