My Personal Virus (A BEN Drowned x Reader fanfic)

A Change of Mind

(You)

I was once again awake and alone but there was something so different, my thoughts changed and it made me scrunch my face out of confusion. The things he said, the things he did, the kiss we shared...it haunted me all at once. I was learning ever since I was captured, all of his actions were changing drastically and god I was afraid. One of the things I have learned was BEN is good at acting, I'll never know if it's real or not until something terrible happens to me.

My thoughts were asking me questions beyond, all of those sorrowful and depressing thoughts disappeared without a trace. I'm still sane but sooner I won't be, though it's difficult to tell which is reality since almost every part of my life currently was a lie.

It was exactly noon when the rain started pouring, I stared at the window while I sat quietly with my stomach rumbling and my body itching, it was disgusting for me to think that it's been days since I have properly taken a bath. I have been wearing the same shirt and shorts for god knows how long, the lack of my basic needs is probably enough to kill me soon. Then the door opened, I didn't bother to check who entered since I already know who it was exactly, the mattress sunk heavier than usual, with that I turned my head around.

Those crimson eyes stared at me with a blank expression, he simply sat there but this time he brought certain things with him. It was a bowl of Ramen on a tray accompanied with a bottle of iced tea, there is also a clean pink towel and some cleaning essentials scattered beside it, there's also fresh clean clothes. I stared with slight disbelief but waited for him to speak.

"Obviously I brought these for you, so you might as well go...fix yourself?"

BEN's voice sounded a bit timid but calm, I was hesitant but my conscience begged for me to go do it. Eventually not too long, I was eating the hot Ramen quickly than I can ever imagine, my stomach aches for a second but it soon felt good after finishing the whole thing less than five minutes. After that, I drank half of the ice tea then I released a loud and pleasing burp. It felt incredibly nice to finally consume food after a while, I rested for a while with the elf's gaze on me, I gazed back making me wonder. Then he threw the pink towel towards me followed by the cleaning essentials and the clean clothes, he didn't say a word but gave me a nod towards the bathroom door. With that, I stood up and walked calmly to the bathroom.

Once I was in, I released a sigh. I let a few seconds pass before I stripped off my clothes, I then opened the water tap and plugged the drain letting the water build up on the bathtub. I grabbed the body wash as I squirted a good amount on the water, I used my hand to thoroughly mix the body wash with the water resulting for it to become bubbly as expected. After the tub was full, I turned off the water tap then finally dipped in. I let a sigh of pleasure exit my mouth, the water felt incredibly cold but pleasing on my skin. I started washing my body along with my face, then I grabbed the bottle of shampoo as I squirted the perfect amount on my palm, soon I was scrubbing my scalp and massaging it properly feeling the contentment of cleanliness.

After I was done bathing, I proceeded to put on the clothes BEN gave me. Eventually, I recognized that the clothes he gave actually belonged to me(including the undergarments). Soon I started brushing my teeth with the new toothbrush he gave me along with the toothpaste, after that's also done I headed out. 

The blonde elf was there, lying so peacefully in the bed. Throughout my bathing, I was having some thoughts about him, most likely it would be his face and voice. Quietly I sat down on the bed feeling the mattress sink, his head shot on his side to gaze at me and with that our eyes met again. There is something about the way we would gaze into each other's eyes, it felt so...odd yet harmless, overall it was confusing. It was silent for a while, all we could hear was the heavy rain outside the window.