My Personal Virus (A BEN Drowned x Reader fanfic)

The Great Escape

(You)

I never knew what BEN's intentions are but I will always hate it, it was never a good intention but rather a tragedy that looked like a funny movie in his eyes. I bottled up all my emotions inside not uttering a word at all, but he disliked it. He would do attempts just to make me react or speak, but he failed due to me finally used to his antics. 

It got to the point where he eventually saw the fear flash in my eyes as I stared at the familiar cup that contained the lethal acid from before, he decided to traumatize me in order to get what he wants, in the end, he won as he took his price as well as a beating that served as a reward from him. That bastard tricked me, that cup was filled with cold water and he knew I would never know. I was scared shitless because of a cup of water, that made me sound pretty pathetic.

I couldn't count the days nor months that have passed, I hardly felt alive, it only felt like I was just there for something I didn't like nor wanted. I have no other desire but to end it all, I want to die, now that's what both me and BEN wanted. But when does this have to end? I want it now, the longer I exist the more I become desperate to be touched by Death. 

THUD

My eyes snapped wide open, quickly I searched for the source of the sound. It's probably past midnight at this time, the surroundings were still dark except for the bed in which I am currently lying on, the moon's light was directly at my figure as I still tried to find something out of the ordinary.

"Pst"

I flinched upon seeing the person right beside me, my eyes only went wide as I stared with disbelief, relief, and joy flooded over me causing me to tackle the person to a hug.

"I'm sorry I took too long"

"I don't care, all that matters that you're here now Helen"

When we pulled away from our short embrace, we suddenly stared at each other's eyes. Those calming blue eyes were enough to tug a smile upon my face, it felt nice to smile after a while. Helen notices this as he returned the favor with a much bigger smile, it made my insides burn in the most pleasant way that I couldn't describe, but I loved it, I loved the feeling so much.

"[Name]?"

"Yes"

"Do you trust me?"

I paused, I was unsure. I have never thought of this before, we rarely even knew each other. Is it bad to feel safe when I'm not sure about my trust for him? Suddenly things became confusing, I was having a conflict with myself. I could see his smile is replaced with an anxious expression, I simply bit my lip out of frustration.

Do I trust him?

I had to make a choice. Soon I took a deep breath as I gazed into his eyes once more, those blank blue eyes that I first saw was nothing more but calm waves full of concern. He was different from the guy that I have met a few months ago, he was the one that made me smile without a perfect reason, the one that lifted my spirits up. I didn't know him completely, but I know I wanted to, so badly.

"Yes, I trust you"

Helen's smile returned as he embraced me, I wrapped my arms around him taking him in, accepting him with open arms. After pulling away, he took my hand and lead me out of the bed, then we exited the room and into the pitch dark hallway. I gripped at his hand, holding it tightly like my life depended upon it. Soon we finally started walking down the stairs, it was silent and it sure did make me nervous. I didn't know what I was doing, but Helen has a plan, and I trust him. Once we made it downstairs, we made a stop.