Are You Crying, Too?

Monster

All I could think about was Bakugou.  He was stuck in my head.  Was he the one that I loved?  That I love?  Or was it someone else?

I looked at Phthonus, who was sleeping peacefully beside me.  Why was he so worried?  Was he observing me for any sign of my remembering him?  But, he told me to forget about him...  Right?  So why would Phthonus be troubled by me seeing him?  Was the quirk he used on me unstable?

"What are you mumbling about?" Phthonus sleepily said.  I looked over at his sleeping position.  He was cuddling against my body with both of his arms rapped around my right arm.

"N-nothing..." I whispered.  I hadn't realized that I was mumbling.  Phthonus groaned before tiredly sitting up and stretching.  He slowly got out of bed and walked to the closet.

"We're going out today," Phthonus tossed me a set of casual clothes, as well as a black hoody, "Put those on."

"Where are we going?" I asked skeptically as he put on his own dark red hoody.  Phthonus wouldn't let me outside unless he has something planned.

"I want to go on a date with you.  Isn't that normal for couples?" Phthonus walked toward me.  Once he reached me, he pulled my hood over my head.  A small smile was laying on Phthonus's face, and his eyes had this far-away look to them.  He wouldn't look at my eyes, but he wasn't avoiding them.  The way he was acting out me on edge.  What was he planning to do?  I doubted that we would be going on an actual date.

Phthonus lightly grabbed my wrist and pulled me out of the room and through the mansions halls.  I followed behind him while I thought of what could possibly happen in the near future.  I would later know that none of my thoughts even came close to hitting the target.

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"Ah!  We're here!" Phthonus excitedly exclaimed.  I looked around us to see a large mall.  It was filled to the brim with people.  Phthonus suddenly started to laugh quietly.

"I'll finally get what I want..." I stared in bewilderment as his childish laughter suddenly became loud.  He turned to me, ignoring the massive amount of people that stared at his covered form.
"I want you to kill them," Phthonus said.  My body froze as I suddenly realized why I was brought here.  Phthonus...  Wanted me to kill.  Tears started pour from my tear ducts.

"Phthonus...  Don't make me do it..." I whispered.  Phthonus just stared at me with that far-away look still in his eyes, "Please...  Don't make me do this...  Phthonus..." I pleaded.  I didn't want to do this.  I wanted to save people, not hurt them...  Please...

"Kill them.  Every last one of them.  Don't let any of them live," Phthonus ordered.  My body slowly move towards the person closest to me.  It shook as it grabbed hold of someone invisible and snapped their neck.  She let out a scream.  A scream that I recognized.  Hagekure...?   The tears that already flowed down my cheeks became more frequent.  She wasn't moving.  She was still.  What had I done?  Why did I...?  I'm...  I'm a monster.  I killed someone.  I don't deserve to live!  I don't deserve to go to Heaven!  Deku...  I'm not a hero...  How can a hero kill someone innocent?  Deku!  

I stumbled forward, trying to chase after my hero name.  Deku...  Where are you?  Where did you go?  Where did the hero in me go?  Deku!  Deku!  Deku...!  Come back!  Don't leave me!  Please!  I didn't mean to do it!  I had to!  Deku...!  Deku...  Where are you...?  You're not a villain...  You're not...  You can't be...  Deku...

I pulled the hood farther pass my face.  I didn't want anyone to see who I was.  Deku...  Please, come back...  You struggled all of your life to become a hero.  Don't let yourself fall so easily...  All Might gave you his quirk so that you could save people...  You're in dept to him...  So save people!  Don't hurt them!

My eyes observed my surroundings.  Each time I spotted someone, I walked over to them and killed them.  3...  8... 21...  How many more were there?  Run...  Run away from me!  Please!  I don't want to do this!

A little child around the age of four was snuggling up to her parents.  All of them were crying in fear as I stood above them.  

I watched as the older woman spoke, "Please!  Let our daughter-" She got cut off when I picked her up and snapped her neck.  I dropped her body on top of her husband and child.  

"Mom!?  Mom!?" The dad pushed the woman out of the way.  He got up and tried to run away with the little girl.  I caught them before they even got the chance to run.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry," I chanted.  I looked away as I killed the dad and the little girl.  I then watched from my peripheral as the little girls brown twin braids followed her body down as gravity pulled her to the earth.

Pro heros showed up to the mass murder after the child's death.  It was Kamui Woods and Cementas.

I walked over to them, only for Cementas to make blocks of cement appear in my way.  I jumped up to the first obstacle before jumping across the rest of the cement walls that Cementas had made.  I landed in front of the two heros.  Kamui tried to capture me in his wooden hold, but I speedily dodged.  I ran up to him and slammed him into the wall behind him.  I then turned to Cementas, knowing that Kamui was going to be dazed for the next while.  I walked to Cementas slowly, trying to the time for him to run.

"Run..." I muttered. Cementas didn't move.  The order to kill made my body start running to him.  I jumped over the barricades he made skillfully, and without hesitation.  I landed behind Cementas when I jumped from the last wall.  He turned to me, the cement that formed his body making home move slowly.  I used One for All to break his head into tiny rocks.  I watched as his body fell backwards into the ground.

My attention was then turned to Kamui as he tried to capture me once again.  I dodged his attack and grabbed onto his extended wooden arm to launch myself on it.  I then ran to his original body, not giving him enough time to think clearly.  I then used One for All to snap Kamui's neck to the side.  His body fell to the ground with a dull thud.  

I scanned the area around me before I collapsed onto my knees.  What had I done?  How many had I killed?

Phthonus came to my side.  He crouched down to my height to hug my crying form.  I could see the bright smile that was placed on his lips.  I didn't want him near me.  But I couldn't bring myself to push him away.  Phthonus started shaking before he broke into his innocent, child-like laughter.  

"Finally...  I'll be number one.  I'll be the number one villain," He whispered.  He pulled back from the hug and abruptly kissed me.  I didn't kiss back, nor did I push away.  I just looked into the far distance.

Phthonus took his left hand and made it travel from my back to my abbs.  He then slid it up my abbs to tangle his fingers into my hair.  His right hand moved to cup my chin.  He pulled away when he needed to breathe.  

Even if my gaze was directed to the buildings behind him, I could see Phthonus smile.  He moved his left hand to graze my cheek with its fingers.

"I'll finally be on top...  All I needed was you."

Phthonus then brought me home.  I couldn't tell if anything happened for awhile after the mas murder.  I was to stuck in my own thoughts to care about anything else.  I was to stuck on one thought in particular.

I'm a monster.