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Me and Kachan finished eating lunch quickly.  I couldn't get my mind off of what Kachan said.  He told me that I deserved to be happy.  That thought made me smile.  The one that I loved, loved me back.  I never thought that that would happen.  I thought that if Kachan knew what I felt, he would tell to 'fuck off.' He loved me for so long...  It was hard to believe.

"What do you wanna watch?" Kachan asked as we entered the living room.  I shrugged my shoulders.  Kachan took the remote off of the coffee table and plopped down on the couch.  I yelped in surprise as Kachan suddenly pulled my hand, causing me to fall harshly on his lap.  He snuck his arms inbetween mine and pulled me up against his chest.  A blush covered my cheeks and ears.

"K-Kachan!?" I shrieked.  He smirked as he placed his chin on top of my head.  His arms didn't loosen from their hold.  Kachan flipped through the channels before he finely decided on some TV show.  I nestled into him as much as I could once I relaxed.  We sat like that for the next few hours, neither of us getting bored in each other's company.

My head suddenly started to fog over, making everything became blurry.  It didn't take much time for the fog to completely encompass my brain, causing me to fall into a deep sleep.

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"Izuku..." A soft voice called.  My eyes fluttered open to gaze at the clear blue sky.  I looked around me and saw a variety of flowers, most of them pale in color.  Not a single weed tangled itself through the them.

"Izuku..." The voice called once again.  My gaze moved to whomever had said my name.  My eyes widened when I saw his standing form.  Phthonus...

"I'm so glad...  That you came here..." He said.  A small smile was present in his face.  He looked brighter than he ever did before, with his white hair framing his face and curling at the end, and the way his simplistic white dress hung closely to his frame.  I would of thought that he was an innocent child if I had never seen him before.

Phthonus walked towards me, his dress waving ever so slightly in the soft breeze.  His glowing grey-white eyes stared into my green orbs.

"Phthonus..." I took a step back from him, "How are you..."

The image of Kira holding his dislocated head popped into my mind.  He couldn't be alive...  It's impossible...

"I've been waiting to see you...  I've missed you so much..." Phthonus whispered.  He continued to walk to me, while I kept stepping away from him.  This can't be real...

I let out a small gasp as something hard collided with my back.  I looked behind me, but nothing was there.  An invisible barrier kept me from leaving this place.

"Izuku..." Phthonus stopped walking when he was a couple feet away from me.  He stood there and stared into my eyes, searching through my memories with his quirk.  His smile suddenly fell from his face, and his eyes became dark.

"You...  You... cheated on me..." He said.  His fists clenched almost automatically.

"You betrayed me...  Don't you love me..!?  Izuku...  Tell me..!  You love me...  Right..?" He asked.  I couldn't bring myself to answer him.

"Tell me!" He shrieked.  I gulped.  In both my mind and heart, I knew that I didn't love him.  His orders became nothing when he died.

"You don't..." He said.  The flowers surrounding us started to wilt, and the wind began to blow heavily.

"...  I ordered you to love me..!  Why don't you love me!?" He walked towered me, only stopping when he was in arms reach.  He then forcibly grabbed my collar and dragged me down to kiss him.  I tried to pull back, but my body was frozen.  The kiss didn't last vary long. 

"Why did you stop loving me..?" His voice started to waver.  I looked down at his small body.  We stood there in complete silence as I thought of an answer.

"You ordered me to love you, Phthonus...  Love like that will never stay in fruition," I muttered.  I was Phthonus's jaw tense.  His grip on my collar became even tighter.

"No..." He denied, "I won't let you leave me..."

He gazed into my eyes before roughly pulling me into another kiss.  He then pulled back and bit my lip.  I winced, but other than that, nothing happened.  Phthonus backed away from me in shock.  His hand reached up to his teeth.  He felt for the silver tooth that had taken control of me.  His eyes widened when he couldn't feel it's presents.  All of his teeth were a pure, pearly white.

"It's gone..." He stated, "Gone."

I watched as Phthonus slowly shook his head, "No...  It can't be gone..."

Phthonus took a deep, shaky breath.  His expression morphed into that of utter rage.

"I will have you, Izuku!  Even if I can't control you, you will be mine!" The conviction in his voice made me shudder.  Phthonus meant what he said.  He walked to my frozen body, a glare ever ever-present in his face.  When he reached me, he stared up into my eyes.  His teeth gritted themselves together as he re-watched my memories.  I didn't bother to stop him, as I thought that he wouldn't be able to do anything to me.  But the smirk that formed on his face made me rethink my thoughts.

"...  Guilt..." He whispered as he stretched his left hand to caress the back of my neck, "Izuku...  Don't you remember..." He moved his body closer to mine, "How much pain you've caused?"

I gulped.  He what did Phthonus have up his sleeve?

Phthonus dropped his hand to my shoulder before he ran his nose along my neck, "How many people you've hurt?  How many lives you've taken?"

My eyes flashed with memories of the people I've killed.  I was each of their faces, most filled with fear, and the rest filled with rage.  My lips were tugged into a frown.

"You'll never be able to say sorry...  But...  What you can do...  Is punish yourself.  Join me in this world of death, Izuku.  In this world where you are trapped in your own mind...  Suffer for your sins.  That is the only way you'll be freed from your guilt.  Join me, Izuku." Phthonus said.

I shook my head.  I can't listen to what he says.  I can't.

"You've made so many people cry.  You took their loved ones away from them.  You're a monster," Phthonus snuggled his head into my neck, "Nobody will see you the same way that they saw you before.  They'll all call 'monster' when they see you.  You can't be a hero anymore.  They hate you.  You'll be taken to prison and given the death penalty, but do you really think that they'll forgive you?  If you did by another's hands, then you won't be repenting.  All you'll be doing is making people hate you forever.  So, why not repent, Izuku?  Kill yourself.  Kill yourself and then everyone will forgive you.  They'll see how truly sorry you are," Phthonus ended his speech.

I could only stare at the wilted flowers as the harsh wind blew in my face.  Was what Phthonus was saying true?  Would I really be forgiven if I commit suicide?

"Will they...  Really forgive me?" I asked.  Phthonus nodded.

"They'll forgive you," He confirmed, "And you'll be free from your guilt."

"All I have to do...  Is kill myself?" I found myself questioning.

"Yeah.  That's all you have to do," Phthonus said.

His words echoed inside of my head.  I knew that he had me entwined in his trap.  I wanted to repent.  I've tried to kill myself before, so I should have no trouble doing it again, right? 

"Alright.  I'll do it," I stated.  Phthonus's body started to shake as he let out a small chuckle.  He moved his head so that he was looking into my eyes.  Laughter started to stream from his lips. 

"We'll be together again.  And this time, you'll never leave me," Phthonus said.  I suddenly started to feel light-headed.  My body stumbled at it lost its balance.  My orbs looked at Phthonus as I realized that I was leaving this world.  But I knew that it wouldn't take long for me to come back.

Phthonus's sweet, child-like laughter echoed throughout my ears as I woke up.  All I had was one adjective in mind.  I had to repent.