Finding Our Way Back Home Can/Sanem

🌹Chapter-Fourteen🌹

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Metin knew how deep Can's feelings were for Sanem...Oh God what was in that package...it sure wasn't good news...he was certain of that.

He had just parked up ...this afternoon had been hectic with meetings till after hours. It was really late when he had left the office...but he really needed to give Can the package. Getting out of his car Metin headed towards the cabin.

It was late in the evening the fire was slowly dying down...it was a beautiful night. Can decided he would sleep under the naked sky tonight.

He heard the sound of an engine coming to a stop on the road by the cabin. looking in the direction he saw Metin heading towards him.

"Hey Metin two visits in one day aren't I lucky...what have you got for me this time." He said sarcastically....it was nothing to do with Metin....just the Dam situation.

"Well Can i came to give you something...when I came to the office Polen was there so I thought I would come here."

"What is it Metin...wait let me guess she has specified something in the divorce. Is she demanding money...is that it?"

The moment the words were out of his mouth he regretted them. Whatever she was she was not a greedy person. He's pride was hurt...why did he have to open his big mouth.

"What...Can...No Sanem's not like that you know that. This is not you speaking."

"Well what is it then." He was frustrated...rubbing his face with the palm of his hand.

"There was another letter addressed to you, a small package, I didn't want to give it to you earlier." He handed Can the envelope.

Can took it....glanced at it...then threw it to the ground...just missing it getting thrown into the fire.

"I don't want anything from her, I don't want to read anything she's written."

"Can calm down it's not going to help you." Metin knew he was saying all this because he was hurting...

"Metin nothing's going to help me."

"Come and stay with me we can get something to eat have a drink...." Metin suggested.

"No thank you my friend, I just need to be alone."

"Can I don't want to leave you like this."

"I'll be Ok, Metin really...you carry on."

After reassuring him Metin left and he was alone again.

Can looked at package on the ground for what seemed like hours. In the end curiosity got the better of him. He went over and picked it up.

He teared it open...something fell out he went to pick it up. It was a vial of perfume, there was also a letter and her wedding band attached to the letter. Scrunching the letter...he didn't want to know anything. Nothing mattered anymore...he sat down holding the vial.

Reluctantly he un-scrunched the letter putting the ring on his pinki finger and started reading...

Dear Can,

If you are reading this letter then it means this shambles of a marriage is coming to an end...if you can even call it that.

What happened to us was inevitable if not at that time it was sure to happen at a later date.

There would always have be obstacles in our way whether it being interference from people, or our own disagreements.

We are from two different worlds'
that cannot fit in to each other's. It should really never have gone as far as marriage.

I dont know how to explain it...it was like I was under a spell, in my own happy bubble, i don't know i just wasn't myself...but then again these are all just excuses.

Anyway I just want you to know that this is very difficult for me, I'm sure for you as well. .

I don't want to delve into the past but I will say this much. At the time you gave me no opportunity to explain myself...I'm not saying I put any blame on you. I take full responsibility of my actions and regret them profusely.

I just want you to know that whatever I did, I did for you, for our love. You may not see it that way...you may never will.

I may have lied and deceived you but my feelings for you were real they were never deceitful. I loved you with all of my heart...my heart was yours. At this time I'm nothing but an empty soulless shell.

I have no doubt about the feeling's you had for me but it seems to me you based our relationship on a scent and valued it more than me. So I have given you the last vial of the scent along with the full rights, to do with as you wish .

Can, I just want you to know that this life is not perfect, no human is or ever will be. Even the most perfect person will have some flaws. Everyone makes mistakes but if it is really true love it will be strong enough to overcome everything...together...I guess we can say our love wasn't.

I have applied for a petition for divorce...i have signed my part of the petition. When it is finilised they can send the documents on to me for the final signature.

There's no point living in the past...I pray for you all the happiness in the world, but I will also pray that we never cross paths as this would destroy us both.

We've both had enough heartache...I hope you find someone you will love unconditionally and that you will overlook any mistakes they may make. Or at least give them a chance to rectify themselves.

There is now nothing left to say between us, and said things cannot be taken back.

I have returned your ring back to you...it's better this way for both of us to move on with our lives with a clean slate.

Sincerely
Sanem Aydin.

That was it...Sanem Aydin....she had kept that formal...with no feelings... she had it all worked out.

She was right if their love was true. They could have got through it. But who's fault was that....she had been deceitful from the start. He'd forgiven her and then she'd gone and done it again....

Shaking his head "No...no..." It's easy to pass the blame on to someone else... Ok... so she had done it again kept things from him...but his stubbornness and pride had blinded him.

He loved her...he still did. For God's sake he should have listened to her given her a chance to explain. He had treated her unfairly...but she should have.....

Taking a deep breath and exhaling it... It was too late...no point...he took her ring in his hand he squeezed it like he'd done with his own ring untill he could squeeze no more. The ring leaving a mark in his palm... entwined with the faint mark left by his ring.

His eyes went to the vial...opening it....instantally the scent hit his senses and he was taken back to the first time he had inhailed the fragrance. In the dark it had intoxicated him....he was drunk on it....and many times after.

But what now...here he was...empty what was the scent without her. She made the scent. Again...maybe she was right.

No...she wasn't right....the scent was special to him because it was theirs.... their personal connection. That's why it meant everything to him. She knew that and still...she'd gone and gave it to Fabri...and then hidding it from him.

'She was an empty shell'...he was the same. But there was nothing he could do about that now...

May be the week away would probably do him good...a few days to himself....put all this out of him mind if even for a little while....

(The letter was quite difficult to write I'm still not satisfied with they way in which its worded but hey...what can i say the more i look at it the more i tweek it... so I've just left it now. Please let me know what you think...)