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Chapter 18

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  "We delight in the beauty of the butterfly, but rarely admit the changes it has gone through to achieve that beauty."
—    Maya Angelou

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Picture: Skylar's 'first day back' outfit

Video: Chasing the Sky by Empire Cast

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Skylar's Pov

It's been a week and i'm at Ross and mines house- I've been getting better throughout the week and I'm Kinda lucky because school is starting tomorrow so I would rather be healthy and well instead of Ill. I still haven't discussed the 'marriage arrangement' with Ross yet, mostly because he's hasn't been home all week. He wakes up at 8 and goes round the Lynch's house to rehearses and write their new albulm for their west coast tour in 6 weeks. To be honest I haven't seen him, he doesn't even sleep with me in the same bed any more, he says its because "he's too tired to come up the stairs". I couldn't do anything so I just sat in the house that whole week, thinking...

...thinking about If Ross and me are really supposed to be together. If he's willing to put his popularity behind and be with me. To be honest it made me cry because of the sudden lost of company and you know I'm really bad with saying Goodbye's. There was one day it got to me so much that I burst into tears, I cried and cried and cried. I cried for my Dad absence. Being alone with your thoughts is deadly.

I cried because of Ross's absences. I just cried cause I felt like those tears I have been holding in. I needed Ross at that one time. I tried calling him but his phone was off. I tired calling Stormie and I asked her if Ross could be put on the phone and she gave him the phone, but before I even had a chance to tell him to come home, he said and I quote. "Skylar, I'm in the middle of something really important, whatever your calling for, tell me at home" then hung up. That only made me cry for another 2 hours on top.

I felt Loss and homeless, I know what your thinking, 'but your not homeless' I mean it metaphysical speaking. Ross was my home but when he yelled at me, it felt like a Hurricane has just blew the only place I called home away.

Currently I am sitting in the love seat of our home In the Front Room. No TV. NO music. nothing. Im in a grey cotton sweater that is baggy for me and shows half of my left shoulder, whereas my left hand is hidden in it. I bring my hands to my face and slightly chew on my Sweater. I took my bare legs with Socks at the end of them and tucked them under my butt some more as I cuddle on the arm of the chair. I sit their waiting. Again. For him. It's 9.00pm on a dark Sunday Night. His dinner was on the dinning table as usual, cold. He would always tell me before he leaves the house that he will be back at 8. That never happend. I dont know why I still put his dinner on the table at 8 O clock when I know he won't be back until another 2 hours. I menatlly sigh. Is this how he's planning our life to be like, I listen to all his commandments? Does he even realise how neglected he's making doubt.

How unwanted.. I feel.

I wipe away that sorrow tear and repositioned myself on the sofa. I pushed my Blonde hair behind my ears and stare at the door, waiting for him to come home. He would never answer my calls or my text or reply to my Voice Messages. Pushing my glasses further up my nose, I look at that wooden door.

—10 Minutes Later—

I sit here looking at the door. The lifeless, all to familiar door. Waiting for it to move to let my gorgeous finance in.

—40 minutes later—

Playing with the liquid transparent nail vanish I let my foot copy the drip drop of the liquid in the bottle.  I tilt my head on the armchair and continue to glance around the room, glancing from the clock to the door and back to the clock.. seriously. Nearly 10, we have school tomorrow Ross.

—2 hours later—

I lie down on the two seater couch and curl myself in a bawl, waiting for him to come home. I don't know how long I have been here. I can't even see the clock because of how dark the room is. I lie my head aginst the pillow and just rest my eyes, but as soon as my eyes went down, I was out, I let the darkness over take me. Ross please next to me when I wake up... Please.

-Next morning-

I feel like someone has put me in front of a fire, I move from my still bawled position and opened my eyes. I stretched and looked around trying to re familiar myself with Last Nights memories. Then it came, Ross. From God knows where I got my energy but I ran up the stairs and straight to our room to hopefully see him their sleeping. I ran and ran, nearly tripping over a step. I open the door to see, something that broke my heart. The bed was unmade- There was clothes all on the floor and the duvet half falling of the bed. He came home, but he never woke me. He didn't pick me up and put us in the bed. He didn't sleep with me on the couch. I ran to our window that showed the front of the house -the car had gone. He left me. He didn't wake me up. He went to school without me. I have no way of getting to school now, we only share that car between us. Wait... Sugar! School! I ran towards the clock. half 7! damn I only have 15 Minutes to get dressed.

I ran into the bathroom and had the worlds fastest shower. I washed my body and washed my hair. I raced into our room and got my  Blue skinny jeans, my brown belt and my white Oversized jumper.(I prepared my outfit last night -come on I was in the house all week by myself, I had to do the little jobs to keep myself busy). I left my hair in a wavy state, slipped on my boots and my gold  earrings, I don't wear much make-up just Mascara and blush to enhance my cheek bones and make my face look smiler. I grabbed a Banana, my school bag; phone, purse and keys and locked the house. I ran as fast as I could to school.

After a very very impressive 10 minute run I got to school with 5 minutes to spear. I just Stood near a tree trying to catch my breath. Until I heard the most annoying voice- EVER!

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Megan

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