Unmarked

46. Hard Drop Back Down To Earth

A warm glow filters in through my closed eyelids. I smile, enjoying the sensation of our entangled bodies as I allow last night to replay in my head. Turns out, it isn't just our kissing which is intense.

"As amusing as it is to watch you bask in your sex induced afterglow, it's time to wake up," Jas's voice crushes all my happiness.

Prying my eyes open, I cringe at Jas's face peering down at me with its rancid smile bearing overly white teeth.

"What the-" I groan.

"Now now, Cady, watch your language," Jas says quietly. "You should be grateful. You're getting special treatment. Not only have you got your own personal alarm this morning, I'm also delivering you a selection of appropriate clothing." Jas drops a bag next to me. "Not many of my customers receive such a hands-on experience or get the pleasure of seeing my friendly face when they wake up."

"I imagine that is because you're to busy usually being the customer here. Must be a nice perk of the job, testing all the rooms for free," I hiss, pulling the blanket towards my chin to cover my nakedness. Grey's arm is still wrapped around me, his naked body pressed against mine.

Jas laughs softly, "I certainly see you two had fun. I'm glad my gift came in useful." He glances from the empty bottle on the bathroom floor to the clothes scattered across the room. "I would have thought you would be more self-conscious by your... appearance. I should have realised the overzealous covering up was out of necessity rather than a life choice. Can't say I'm surprised though, you always were very confident, very forward. I'm guessing you were the initiator, not many men would find your unmarked state very arousing."

"Get out," Grey growls. He stands quickly, grabs a pair of trousers from the floor and swiftly pulls to cover his bottom half.

I don't know where to look and find myself staring at the sheets which only makes me feel more embarrassed when I notice small flecks of blood. This is too much. I'm way out of my comfort zone which is usually pretty large considering the people I associate with.

Grey squares his shoulders and stalks towards Jas. "There are plenty of people who would find Cady attractive for a whole host of reasons and the fact you seem to be in our room hovering around her whilst she's asleep makes me slightly suspicious of your intentions."

Jas laughs or a more accurate description would be howls. "Cady is young enough to be my daughter. Her and I are acquaintances, I would go so far as to say we were once good friends but nothing more. Our relationship is strictly platonic so you can cease with the jealous boyfriend display."

He's right, we were good friends. A relationship which was encouraged by his ability to bump into me at the perfect time so when he'd suggest having a chat, I'd always be free. We often sat by the river or his driver would drive us around the city. It all changed after the night I killed the Official. He'd seen me at my weakest and I ran, not only from my actions but also him.

"I helped Cady out in one of her darkest times. I was there-"

"Get out," I shout. I don't need him mentioning what he saw. Grey doesn't need to know, no one does. Now my mum is gone, there are only two of us who are aware of what occurred. Only the two of us know the full story. Me and him.

"You shouldn't feel bad about what happened-"

I jump up clutching the sheets tight against my body. "If you still want my help, Jas, leave now."

"We need to talk. I'll wait outside," Jas says casually as he leaves the room.

My heart is pounding, my fists balled so tight the fingernails dig into my skin. Grey walks towards me. He doesn't talk just watches me, waiting to see if I'll fill in the blanks. My mouth won't cooperate. I don't want to revisit those memories. I don't want Grey to see me for what I am. Instead, I press my lips to his and the sheet I'm holding drops to my feet.

"You're trying to distract me," Grey mumbles.

"Am I?" I say, pressing my bare body against him.

I may trust Grey with accepting my body but I don't believe he'll accept the whole me, not once he finds out what I've done. I am a killer and a liar.

One lust fuelled night doesn't signify anything meaningful. Whatever is happening between us has no future and I need to accept this truth fast. Grey will join the rebellion and unknown to him, I will disappear once I've completed Jas's task. If I manage to survive.