Lost | k.t.h ✔

41.

'It's me' I said.

'Mwo?' Jungkook's eyes went wide.

I felt a tear escape down my eye, but I didn't wipe it away. 'The condition didn't affect him for a while was because-' I bit my lip to stop crying. '-was because he was in Korea; away from me. I could be the cause for this surfacing again'

I shut my eyes as the truth hit me.

'Doctor, you said that if it worsens, it might impact his health right?'

The doctor, stunned at my reply, didn't answer immediately.

'Well, yes...but we should-'

'No, I should stay away from him...and I will' I opened my eyes. 'I will do it, even if it kills me. I'll do it for him.'

'I should take some more tests to confirm the time period of the resurfacing. And I also have to say this, he has a rare condition in this illness; if something makes him triggered in your relationship, the condition might get worse. He might get half panic attacks or heart pains randomly. I suggest you to keep a bit of distance till he rests for some weeks' the doctor said.

'Some weeks?' I raised my eyebrows. 'But he's departing back next Sunday!'

The doctor stared at me. 'Unfortunately, he won't be able to do so young lady; what if he passes out while he's travelling? No, he should at least rest for 3 weeks or more with medication. I think you should call his parents and inform them that he's unable to come for some time till we can assure that his health is stable. Now, I should get going with the study of his x-ray results for further clarification. I'll leave you now' the doctor smiled and left the room.

'Ahh' I took a seat next to Taehyung's bed, clutching my head and closing my eyes. All this information made my head hurt uncontrollably.

'Seon' I felt Jungkook's hand on my shoulder. 'Gwenchanayo?'

'Dae' I said softly. 'Ahh, wae did this happen? WAE?' I bit my lip.

'I'll bring some coffee from the cafe' my mum said as she got up. I heard the door click shut when she went, and there was only Jungkook, Taehyung and I left.

Silence.

I suddenly remembered how Jungkook had confessed to me, not a while ago. He must have spent all his courage to do so, and had felt so heartbroken at the same time that I couldn't accept him. I should be the one to comfort him, when right now, he was the one comforting me next to my boyfriend.

How could he be so caring about me? He must be probably falling apart inside right now.

'I thought you were my euphoria but fake happiness is still the worst sadness. But you're stuck in my head and I can't get you out of it. I can't stop thinking about you. I know you'll never like me back. In the end, I know it's you that I can never have.'

His words flowed back into my head.

'Seon, you should call his parents and inform them' Jungkook spoke suddenly, shattering my thoughts.

'Mwo?' I asked as I jumped back to reality. 'Oh, dae!'

I fished out my phone from my jeans and searched the contact list for the number. When I finally found one named Mrs. Kim, I pressed call.

Ten seconds passed, then fifteen. The receiver was just continuous blank beeps.

'No answer?' Jungkook asked me. I shook my head as I tried again, and I heard the line pick up.

'Yeobuseyo?' I spoke. 'Mrs. Kim?'

'Yeobuseyo, Seon-shi?'

'Dae' I said relieved. 'Maam, I need to talk to you about something very important'

'Go on dear' she said happily. 'Did you get the gift from Taehyung?'

I blinked. 'Mwo?' 'The gift?' I glanced at Tae who was still unconscious.

'Oh, didn't he give it to you yet?' I heard her laughing a bit. 'Such a shy boy he is'

'Ani, I don't understand-' I started, confused. 'But maam, I need to talk about something. Did you know that he had a health condition?'

There was a long silence. Then I heard his mum's tone change.

'Do you mean his weak heart?'

'You knew? And you never told??' I opened my mouth to protest.

There was a sigh. 'Listen dear, please don't tell him that I told you about it'

'From when? Did he have it since the time I was there?' my voice was hoarse as I tried to control my emotions.

'Ani' Mrs. Kim said her voice low. 'He diagnosed the symptoms only last year, after some months you left. He started saying that he had chest pains gradually and we went to the doctor. I thought at first it was because he missed you, but then again, he couldn't be without you. I didn't tell him that I saw, but I found some papers in his room where he had written his feelings about you and it eventually came to a point where he couldn't stay apart from you any longer. That's when he decided to come to see you. He wasn't with much contact with you for some time because he was suffering from continuous pains and he thought if he called you, you will be able to figure out that his voice was unusually low or the other side effects of the pain killers he took. After a few weeks, he completely lost all the pains and stopped the meds. He was so happy; and he finally thought-that he could come, and he did. He sacrificed everything to keep you from getting to know about his illness because he didn't want to worry you. I knew some day will come that you'll have to know this...Mianhae for not telling you earlier, I didn't want to make him upset. But being with you made him better, he told me that.'

So I wasn't the cause of his illness resurfacing? Instead, I made him better?

When Mrs. Kim finished explaining, I bit my lip and gripped my phone tighter. A tear escaped from my eye as I stared at Taehyung.

And I thought he had forgotten me back then, when he didn't even share his pain in order to not make me worry...

Jungkook looked at me. 'Seon, are you okay?' he started to get up. I felt his thumb trace my cheek as he wiped my tear that rolled down.

I shut my eyes as my they became an overflowing waterfall with tears.

And there's Jungkook, the boy who stood by everything and did everything; who is now even wiping my tears just like Taehyung did when I left Korea.

I didn't speak, nor did I open my eyes.

Why did these two care about me so much? And why do they sacrifice so much to me? Why?

Then I heard Taehyung's and Jungkook's voices telling me the answer in my head-

'Because you have a place in my heart that no one else's ever had and I love you Lee, I love you.'

'Mianhae for all my actions. But I'll never stop loving you'

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A/N: So....update again...after like 2 weeks.. Sorry for the delay!! And thanks for reading! Don't forget to vote if u liked it! ;)