My Hijab,Jake and I.

Chapter Eighteen/Blue eyed hottie

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Medina

Exams was finally over and that meant summer had officially started and in a week's time I was to be engaged. How could I forget. I have been constantly thinking about it. That and my last encounter I had with Jake.  God I can't forget that at all. However true to his word he has kept a distance

I only saw him out in the garden beating the hell out of the punchbag every evening. I couldn't help but look. Every punch he inflicted on the bag was a punch to my heart. It showed his frustration and quite a few times I was so lost in just drinking him in that more than once our eyes would collide and I would quickly back away. My body and heart in a mess of emotions.

Why was it hard to forget him. Why was it that he was finally giving me the space I wanted and I still wasn't happy. The only respite from my inner turmoil was my saviour and prayer. I was constantly seeking help and guidance. Sometimes I felt that even my lord wasn't listening then I would ask for forgiveness again and again for thinking those thoughts in the first place.

My parents were concerned for I have become withdrawn and quiet. I had stopped eating, just picking at my food. On a few occasions Mamma had to practically feed me with her own hands. She kept on asking again and again if I was okay. I would tell her it was just exams stress and not to worry. However she continued to feed me.. My weight was always a concern for her.

Sarina was the only one I could talk to at home. The girls natalie and Sophie were a godsend.

Natasha was horrified on learning about my engagement. She was so angry. Angry at me ..angry at my parents. She said some things that were extremely mean at the time. Shouting at me to grow a backbone and to make my own decisions. We stopped talking for a couple of days. It took a lot of mediating between Sarina and sophie for us to finally make up again.  We are more alike than we think with our tempers and stubbornness. I was just really angry at her for not understanding. She has known me for a very long time and she still didn't get me at all.

But know she is supporting me one hundred percent. I don't blame her for her reaction. She  doesn't get our ways. She tries her best but she is still find it hard to get used to some things. She has unlimited freedom, she parties, drinks and goes out with boys. The totally opposite of me and Sophie. However none of that has stopped her from being a loyal and good friend. She will have your back no matter what and she has proved it more than a few occasions when some ignorant people judge us for what we wear or who we are. She more than put them in their place. Well when the three of us get together in those situations we are a force to be reckoned with. I smile at the memories.

So now here I am, shitting myself. I’m nervous as hell. The engagement is next week and true to his word Abu jan has only requested the immediate family of Qumar’s to attend the ring ceremony. I want it to be over and done with. I especially want the boy next door to stop fucking with my brain by just breathing. I become a different mean person when I'm under pressure and  I tend to take it out on the people that  mean the most to me and Jake William White means more to me than I care to admit.

In fact loving him and getting engaged to someone else is one of the most painful decisions I have ever made and I hope that I see it through providing that I don't encounter him in the next few days . Ya Allah ..help me please.

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One week later.

I look at myself in the mirror. The girl I see back is beautiful, so I'm told by Natalie, sophie and Sarina. I have decided to wear a long knee length white lace dress with my signature flared sleeves. The design is simple. The small flowery design is more than enough. The trousers are a plain white churidar style. I decided to wear silver three inch heels to add me some height and glamour.My hijab is a plain soft white chiffon with Silver border on the end..Makeup is minimum and touch of gloss to my lips. Small silver earring adorn my ears.